Single Parent

i feel sick

i woke up at 4 in the morning feeling nauseous and sick i rolled over and jeremiah had jayden on his chest asleep i didnt even notice i fell asleep i ran to the bathroom and started throwing up , jeremiah jumped out his sleep looking in the bathroom ,

" baby you ok ?" he asked

" no i feel sick ass fuck " i told him

" you pregnant ?" he asked

" jeremiah i dont know my period not suppose to come for another two days it never came on last month " i said

" we need to get you a test " he said

with everything that was going on and everything with jeremiah and his music a baby was not on the play book we went too walgreens and grabbed a test and some snacks that i was craving , we went back to the house

"you aint waste no time in the snack isle "he told me

" jeremiah go to hell ok " i said laughing

i rushed to the bathroom and took the test , i closed the door behind me , i didnt want jeremiah to see so i waited 10 minutes before leaving the bathroom i turned my back not ready to see the test results , i finally turned around and looked i seen two lines the first line was clear but the second line was faint pink

" Noooooo !" i screamed

" baby you ok ?" he asked

" look " i said brushing past him

" storm its not a bad thing , what you got a attitude for ?" he asked

" because everything thats happening a baby is not in the play book , " i said

" baby its ok im not mad , im shocked but im happy we will make it thru this " he told me

i was kinda at ease when jeremiah was ok with this baby situation but i gotta break the news to the gang and my son . the following morning i rolled over and jeremiah was gone out of bed i sat up to check my phone i had 3 txt messages from the group chat and 4 txt messages from jeremiah , he was telling me that he took the kids out with his mom and he would bring them back home later , im still hurt about my shop i sat in bed for a while longer trying to gather my thoughts when my sister came in the room

" hey you ok i thought i heard screaming  Last night " she said

" yeah " i said

" everything good with you and jeremiah ?" she asked

" look " i said tossing the test

" oooh shit congrats " she said laughing

" im scared jess my kids life could be in danger and what if this hit the media and chris see it " i said

" you care too much about what chris think thats the problem FUCK HIM YOU GOT JEREMIAH thats your nigga and that should be your main focus " she told me

she was right i was to worried about what chris thought when he is the reason im in this situation , i was going to tell the gang , i asked jeremiah was it ok if the girls come visit i miss being back home , he told me he would book they flight and have the boys go pick them up for me so me and my sister went grocery shopping we Went To walmart Cause It was Close Too the House , Jeremiah Txt Me To Check On Us I told Him we Was Good and That i Missed Him and the kids