you are what you eat.
in that case , i've been nothing for the past week.
"good morning chifuyu.."
baji greeted as he reached my gate.
he was wearing a white shirt , with a black leather jacket and pants of the same material.
he swung a tote bag over his shoulders and ruffled up his hair.
i nodded , as i picked up the pace and started walking.
baji soon followed behind , asking a couple questions.
"why'd you call me to follow you today , fuyu?"
"why aren't you getting the tofu you like?"
"why are you only buying gum?"
"shut up , baji."
i snapped.
that was stupid of me.
i shouldn't have said that , especially in front of keisuke.
i messed up , didn't i.
i should apologise..
i turned around , facing baji.
to my astonishment , he wasn't there.
i wonder if he went off because of what i said.
i should apologise to him during school tomorrow.
after walking around the shop for a couple minutes , i heard someone calling my name.
"fuyu , i got some food for you"
baji said as he gestured towards the plastic bags in his hands.
from what i could see , he bought some rice , fish , tofu , and cat food for peke j.
i felt a grin creep onto my face.
"um , baji , you , didn't have to ... pay for them"
i said shyly as i intertwined my fingers together.
keisuke knows i do this whenever i feel embarrassed or scared.
he walked towards me and gripped my wrist tightly.
he looked beautiful under the light.
his hair was shining , his eyes perked up and his mouth looked soft.
soft enough that it made me want to kiss them.
i wonder how they would feel on my lips.
"we're friends anyways , let's go back to your apartment"
right.
we are just friends.
nothing more.
what was i thinking? obviously i can't be more than friends with baji.
he's the coolest guy ever.
being his best friend felt like a fever dream.
i wonder what he would do if he found out i liked him...
"chifuyu?"
baji questioned as he tilted his head.
our faces were so close , our noses brushed against each other's.
my face flushed beet red as i faced the other way.
i quickly covered my face with my sweaty palms.
i felt my heart rate increasing , as my breath cut short. i felt dizzy.
the last thing i saw was baji's deep brown eyes.
i got lost in them , i think.
it doesn't matter.
"FUYU...I.."
"baji...kun?"
baji's muscular arms armed around my thin , slender waist.
he locked eyes with me , as he ran his fingers through my blonde hair.
where was i?
"it looks like chifuyu is alright now. he'll have to stay for 2 more days before he can be discharged. he's malnourished and has been down with a high fever."
the nurse muttered as she wrote something down on her clipboard.
"i'm glad you're okay , chifuyu..."
baji's eyes twitched slightly before tears started falling down his cheeks.
i attempted to raise a finger to his chin , but failed.
i felt so weak.
i couldnt even comfort him.
i closed my eyes , as i fidgeted under the blanket.
suddenly , i felt warm lips touch cold cheek.
"why didn't you tell me...i was so scared"
i let out a weak smile before chuckling a little.
just as i sat up , i saw mikey , takemichi , draken , and mitsuya peeping from the door.
mikey wasn't even trying to hide.
he even had a camera ready to capture baji's weak moments.
i laughed it off and pointed to mikey.
"baji , looks like all our friends are here"
baji turned around momentarily.
i swear i saw his eyebrows furrow as he saw mikey.
i had to grip on his wrist as tight as i could.
i wasn't very strong , especially since i've been down a week's worth of food.
it was kinda interesting seeing baji's other sides.
i've only seen his soft side and aggressive one.
after he was done dealing with mikey , he walked back to my hospital bed , and sat on the edge.
i didn't mind it.
in fact , i loved it.
he put his calloused palms on my collarbone , before making its way to my neck.
he gripped it tightly , still letting some space for me to breathe.
"matsuno chifuyu , i love you"
what?
who confesses while choking their crush?
well , baji does.
was i surprised ? no.
do i like it ? yes.
i lowered my head , and showed him my trump card.
i put on my puppy eyes , and arched my back a little.
i placed a finger onto my lip , and poured.
baji immediately let go of my neck , and took a sharp breath.
"fuyu , you know what you've done , right?"
baji leaned in for a kiss , and placed his fingers on my chin.
i moved into the kiss , feeling baji's soft lips against mine.
just as i felt his wet tongue slip into mine , he pulled away , leaving a trail of saliva dropped down my face.
"more...keisuke.."
i pleaded.
he shook his head and gave me the look.
i'm not satisfied with this.
just as i was about to get up from the bed , the iv tubes pulled me back.
"you're lucky...you'd be dead meat if not for these tubes."
wait.
wait.
we are just friends?
i kissed him on the lips and even pleaded for more?
what even are we...
"baji , are we friends?"
"what do you mean ? we're best friends."
he replied.
oh.
why'd you kiss me..you idiot.
it's okay , it was probably a platonic kiss.
i'd be dumb if i considered it as a real kiss.
maybe he's practicing to kiss his crush?
i let those thought roam my mind as i dozed off to sleep.
i guess it's better than thinking hard about our complicated relationship.
friendship , i meant.
i hope we'll talk it out in the future.
for now...this is enough.
[1k words , 22/8/21]
