Save Me From My Own Demise (Phan)

Broken Generation

*Dans POV*
-7 months later: about a month until the baby is due-

Me and Phil stayed in the hospital for days, even weeks after the crash, hoping, even praying that somehow Courtney and our child would be spared. Those long visiting hours each day were the thing that kept me and Phil sane, well as sane as we could still be, because we had already lost our sanity, there was no way a person could be completely okay after something like that and not have some scars.

Phil and I would cry each night, unable to say anything to each other. We had worked so hard for everything we had and now we could lose it all because of one stupid brake in a car. I didn't even know if me and Phil would be together after it, because we were so distant from one another lately, and we'd not even kissed in that time either, because it was time to face the cold hard truth, me and Phil were growing apart.

One morning, me and Phil got ready to go to the hospital like usual, and only then did he speak to me. "I'm sorry .." He said. I turned around and looked at him and smiled. "You have nothing to be sorry for." I replied, walking over and touching his arm. He did something he'd never done before, he flinched. "Has our relationship got so bad that we can't even touch each other without flinching?" I said sounding incredibly hurt, which I was.

He didn't say a word to me after that for the entire day. He just stared at me occasionally and looked down at his feet while holding in his tears with every ounce of strength he had, until when we got home later that night. Me and him sat opposite each other, eating dinner in silence. "I love you, you do know that." He whispered. "I know, and I do too. I just wish you weren't so .. Distant." I confessed. "You know that I don't mean it. I just don't know how to be around you anymore, because I'm scared I'll lose you." He said, looking up. "The only way I've been able to cope with the pain is ... By you know. Doing the thing I used to do." He said ashamed. "Phil, show me your arm. I'm not mad, but I want you to trust me okay?"

When he lifted his sleeve up, there were scars all over his arm, some red and some not. It didn't seem real, because there were so many, way too many to count with my own eyes. He pulled his sleeve over them again, and looked at me, with a frown on his face. "We're broken, Dan and I don't know how to fix us anymore." He said plainly. "As long as you promise to stop doing that, then we'll be okay, because I'm never going to leave you, I love you." I promised, getting up and picking up both our plates and taking them both to the kitchen. "I'll be upstairs if you need me, goodnight. I love you." Phil told me, kissing my cheek shyly and going up the stairs.

I looked at my phone on the table, and picked it up. I went to the text that had been sent by that unknown number, and I knew that the breaks were cut by someone, and that person was the person who sent me the text, I absolutely knew it. I threw my phone across the room and it landed on the floor, and I put my hands over my eyes and sighed. This couldn't be happening.

My phone rang, and I picked it up and answered it. "Hello?" "Yes, this is Doctor Johnson, you need to get here quickly, Courtney's gone into labour. She's still in her coma but somehow it's happening and it's happening quickly." "We'll be there soon." And I hung up. I got Phil and we got the bag of overnight things for us and the baby and we sped off to the hospital in a taxi. We found her room and went inside to see Courtney awake and screaming, with doctors all around here and us there staring in disbelief. "Sit down, she's nearly there." Doctor Johnson said. "Come on Courtney, one more push!"

Courtney screamed again and pushed as hard as she could and the doctor picked up our baby. Silence was heard for an unnecessary amount of time, and everyone looked worried. Suddenly, a cry was heard from our baby. "It's a girl!" The doctor shouted. Me and Phil and went to hold her, and Phil took her from Courtney and held her, with tears in his eyes. "She's beautiful Dan. She's perfect, I think I'm love." Phil said, with a big smile on his face as he gave her to me. "She sure is, she's our little princess." I whispered to him. I kissed Phil and then our little girl. "So, what are you guy gonna name her?" Courtney asked, tears in her eyes. "I think Emily. Do you both agree?" I smiled. They both nodded. "Then it's settled then. Welcome to the world Emily."