passionate.
YNS POV:
billie has been so busy lately with her label and tour and setting dates that we've barely done anything together lately. I've been sleeping alone in our bed almost 5 days a week.
"babeeee babe..baby.." no answer whatsoever
"bil.." she's won't look at me.
"billie please.." she's been on her computer all day.
"oh yeah sorry baby, what's up?" god I hate that. she ignores me and then answers me like she hasn't been acting like a dick lately. like I get she has a shit load of things to get through but I'm her gf. atleast I think I still am..
"you know what. forget it." im so done.
"no- wait ba-" I don't let her finish and I walk out slamming her room door and moving into the living room
I've cried myself to sleep so many times wondering if she still loved me. one day she'll come around. this day will be different. she'll notice me. and nothing changes.
she steps out of her room and leans against the door frame running her hand over her arm like she's trying to think about what to say.
"y/n..are you like good?"
nah I'm fine like fucking cupcakes and rainbows.
"sure." I give a sarcastic smile
she scoffs and rolls her eyes coming over to where I'm sitting, Im so tired of her bs. I know she's tired too but that doesn't give her the excuse to be a total bitch.
"can you just stop." I side eyed her
"wh-"
"I'm your girlfriend. I give you love and attention. we hug, we kiss. but we don't do that shit anymore. I swear it's like I'm not even a fucking part of your life anymore all it is anymore is do this, do that, get me this, get me that. you never show me that you love me anymore. I sleep alone most days and I never get anything back." at this point I'm on the brink of tears.
she looks down then looks away knowing that I'm right.
"I'm really sorry babe..I do love you. so much. how about we go out tonight..?"
I put on a concentrated face, do I really wanna go out with her rn. I mean it's a nice idea.
I nod and she smiles giving me a peck on the lips, one of the things I've rarely been getting for the past month.
time went by really fucking slow, just like every other day, I sit on her bed doing nothing while she's on her computer doing who knows what. shit she could be cheating for all I know. she isn't though. I know that.
"you ready baby?"
"yeah" I smile at her and we head to a restaurant, the car ride was so silent and awkward you could hear a paper clip drop. I swear to god.
she opens my door for me and we go in sitting down, it wasn't that fancy but it was still a nice place, like an off brand Olive Garden.
"you look really beautiful yk" I blush, I haven't heard that in a while
I love her so much.
"thank you, you look good too babe"
we eventually ordered and we're mid eating when an argument starts..
"nah cuz wdym your work is more important..what am i a burden to you?"
she shakes her head quickly knowing she fucked up
"no- it's not like th-"
"mmm well pretty sure saying oh well my work is really important so sorry I haven't been giving any attention to you, means that." I say using two fingers as air quotes
people start to stare.
I scoff "whatever billie, go fucking run to your label and kiss them for me. you asshole."
billie looks at me with a stern look and she's kinda shocked that i just said that
I walk out and sit on a bench outside
she comes out the door and stays silent unlocking the car, I kinda took the message and got in with her. again. the drive was completely silent but now there was tension.
when we got home she slammed the door shut and looked at me
"you're a fucking idiot for that."
"me? please. your bitch ass has been ignoring the person who's in love with you." she's such a dick
"I know. and I'm sorry. I know what I said at dinner was out of pocket. but I didn't mean it like that, I was trying to apologize." was she?
"mhm. I really love you I do, but you're being such a fucking dick."
she walks up to me and slowly gives me a hug, she realizes that I don't pull away and hugs me tighter.
"I love you so much more." that made me melt so much I could've cried on the spot.
I relax myself and hug her back, after awhile she looks at me and kisses me, we started to make out very slowly, nothing was fast paced and she took the time to put everything into it.
she picks me up and sets my back to the couch, I scooch back and she crawls on top of me kissing my neck, I groan softly.
"I'm so sorry baby.." her voice quivers a little and she has that sympathy and guilt sound
"baby.." I breathe out getting weaker and weaker
she continues to nip at my skin and starts to trail her hands over my body and eventually gets my shirt and bra off.
"god you're so beautiful" i whimpered
her mouth attaches to my breast as she sucks and flicks her tongue around both of them. at the same time she starts to palm me through my clothing making me breathe heavy and grind my hips.
"fuck..please.." I moan
instead of dragging out longer she slides her hand into my pants while holding herself up with the other. her fingers slide through my folds making me whine in neediness.
her fingers start to circle my clit as she whispers how much she loved me and sweet little praises that made my eyes roll back.
"yeah baby? does that feel good?" I nod my head and it fell back shortly after
my mouth stayed ajar while my moans came out.
"faster.." i breathe out
she followed my instructions almost immediately rubbing me faster, I moan loudly and she muffles them by kissing me again sliding her tongue in. god I love the way her hands and tongue feel on me.
"im gonna cum" I say against her lips now struggling to kiss her back
she quickly inserts two of her fingers into me making me almost scream as she curls her fingers against my g-spot going at a fast pace
"oh my god..I'm cumming" I whine out
my back arches and my eyes roll back as my orgasm hits me hard, soon she takes her fingers out and tells me to suck making me clean her fingers
"i promise it's not gonna be like that anymore. I really do love you so much." as im still panting I say my I love you back and she cuddles with me as I lie there shirtless closing my eyes
she really means the world to me, but sometimes she can be such an ass though.
