In Another Lifetime ➳ Choi Beomgyu [END]

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people says, not everything that we want, we will get. not everything that we plan, will happen. now beomgyu fully understand that. since he's a kid, beomgyu got everything he wants. theres not a single thing that beomgyu want that he won't be able to get. his parents will do literally everything to fulfill his wish. but why? why didn't it works at the moment beomgyu prays and wishing for y/n to never leave and come back to him instead? has universe always been this unfair and cruel?

beomgyu asked for one— for y/n to come back to him, to come back home.

beomgyu never feel such a great heartbreak, never feel this down all his entire life. he feels like everything else is meaningless. what was the reason? why does it happen?

beomgyu never stop crying, yearning for the girl to come back, pretending and wishing that all of this are just a mere hallucination or dream. but its not. its not, and that's why he feels hopeless.

one week has passed. everything changed. his life turns monochrome. dull and dark.
his heart feels empty, and he wants nothing rather than crying all he could. beomgyu is tired, so tired. he barely eats and only drink a small amount of water. he's totally wrecked, didn't go to office for the whole week and choose to lock himself at home instead.

he doesn't talk. not even with huening kai.
and everyone seems to understand that so they give beomgyu more times to corp and gain his strength back. beomgyu's thankful for that. huening kai and soobin sometimes will come to send him food but its always left untouched. beomgyu and y/n's parents has called the guy multiple times too but to no avail, he never picks up his phone and keep it on silence mode instead.

everything takes turn. everything feels different. he never expect that night was the last time beomgyu will be talking to her. beomgyu never expect that the messages that they exchanged right before the plane boarding is the last one he'll be receiving. there's none after that.

beomgyu want to convince himself that everything isn't true. but he know it is. its true. everything happened is true no matter how much he pretend it wasn't.

just like now, beomgyu's locking himself in the house. spacious, huge, and luxurious. but what's the point if its empty and sullen. all can be heard was just crying sounds, sobs and along with sniffles. with beomgyu laying himself on the cream colored couch and hugging one of the cushion. he cried hard. his eyes turned red and puffy, tears stained cheeks. more and more tears rolling down his cheeks nonstop. no matter how much beomgyu tries to wipe it off, it will only be replace with a new one at the end.

it takes him a moment before getting up from the couch to go to the kitchen. he chugs down the cold water since his throat feels dry from all the crying ealier. his eyes usually shiny and beautiful. but this time its empty, dark, sullen, showing no emotion and unreadable.

he leaves the kitchen, walking back to the couch but he halts his steps the moment his gaze lands on a room door. beomgyu don't want, he keeps refraining himself to go but his legs betrayed him, keep walking until he's infront of the door completely.
unconciously, he clasped his hand around the doorknob before twisting in open and revealing the inside of the room.

the room was decorated with pink pastel coloured wall. beomgyu knows that its one of y/n's favourite colour. he step inside, eyes wandering around. he wants to go out already, but theres something that keep pushing him to stay. so, he stay. he can see theres few polaroid photos of her that she hang on the wall, and few framed photos on top of a desk. this room is unexpectedly very clean despite has not been in use for a long time already. almost not even a single dust.

beomgyu sit on the soft bed, until when he's about to get up, his foot accidentally hit something from the side of the bed. he bent down in curiousity, and his gaze eventually lands on a black box on the ground. beomgyu furrowed his eyebrows, he don't sure and don't know what is it. he never once see it before. it must be something that she wants to keep nicely.

beomgyu sit again on the bed, placing the medium sized box on his laps and starts to open it with careful. he lets out a small gasp once his eyes caught what's inside. and unknowingly, his eyes start to get teary for the countless times already.

inside it, beomgyu can see few polaroid photos of their ice skating date. they both look happy in the photo. even beomgyu has a wide smile on his face. beomgyu can't hold back his tears anymore, more and more tears welling at the corner of his eyes till his sight almost turning blurry.

other than the polaroids, beomgyu can see a scrap book too. right, the scrap book that they decorated together that night. full of their photos and memories. beomgyu would never forget it. never.

" you..how could you.." he mutters, voice cracking at the end of sentences. " i thought we promised to get married again.."

" we promised that we'll together for a long time." beomgyu whispers, trailing his fingers at each one of the scrap book's pages. his tears drop on the paper without his own realization.

beomgyu closed the scrap book, putting all the polaroids and the book inside the box again before closing it just like how it is before.

he gets up from the bed, moving toward the room's windown amd slides the curtain open. moonlight slipping through the window, bringing dim light in the room. beomgyu looks up as he gritted his teeth in frustration. the stars wasn't as bright as usual, today. were they as sad as beomgyu?

beomgyu hates the stars. because everytime he looks at them, memories start to flooding back in his mind and at the end, he'll cry even harder than before.

the stars were there during their date, decorating the scrap book, oblivious about what will happen in the future.

the stars were there when beomgyu sings infront of y/n for the first time. emotional day? indeed.

the stars were there when y/n said her beautiful three words in front of beomgyu.
i love you.

the stars were there when y/n had her nightmare about beomgyu leaving her. funny isn't it? now, who left who?

the stars were there when beomgyu and y/n shared their first kiss together. mixed feelings, hearts beating in sync, crystal clear tears flowing down on both their cheeks. basking into each other's warmth.

the stars were there when beomgyu said his first i love you to y/n. indeed one of the best moment that ever happen in both of their lives.

the stars were there when beomgyu asked the girl to get married for the second time. with real feelings, not just a stupid arranged marriage. god knows how happy was her that time.

" lets get married once you return from Paris." is that a joke? why is it suppose to happen now that she wasn't here, leaving the guy all alone amd lonely. leaving him with breaking heart that who knows if it can be fixed again or not.

and lastly, the stars were there when y/n closed her eyes for the last time.

beomgyu inhaled and exhaled a deep breath. how is he suppose to live now? knowing that from now on, the girl won't be there to keep him accompany like usual.

funny. funny because they're so fucking close to reach their happy ending but universe always has it ways to ruin everything in just a blink of an eye.

why? why must him? the moment they're both are so happy with each other. the moment they found love in each other. that is also the starter of the downhill in beomgyu's life. he feels lost. like a guy who don't know a direction. like a guy who's trapped in a darkness and lost its only source of light. right, she's the light. brighter than the stars.

beomgyu found it unfair, cruel and tragic. why couldn't they get their own happy ending? is it so hard?

" i love you..i've always love you and i don't think i'll ever stop loving you." he said as stares at the dark sky.

" maybe not in this lifetime." beomgyu whispers.

" but i promise you that in another lifetime, we'll get our own happy ending. I promise you in another lifetime, we can be happy. we can, y/n. i promise you we can."

beomgyu sniffles, wiping off his tears with the sleeves of his shirt. forcing a smile across his face as he looks up at the sky. y/n must be watching him from there.

" sleep well, my angel. we'll meet again in another lifetime."

THE END