The Company of Words

Gone, Yet Here

You have been on my mind a lot lately,
Reminding me that you're still around.

There's so much I miss about you,
Like your giggle, an infectious sound.

So much has happened since you've gone,
I won't lie, it's been harder than hard.

There's things I have wanted to tell you,
Knowing I can't, leaves my heart scarred.

I miss so much about you,
More so about us.

We were a team,
A dynamic duo.

We laughed and cried,
Shared so much, you know?

Which is why the hurt, hurts.
Time hasn't healed me much.

All of our chats and laughter,
I miss so damn much.

You weren't just my Nan,
You were so much more than that.

My mother-figure and a friend,
My confidant, my safety mat.

We were partners in silly crime,
Talkers of many a thing.

Conversations about what hurts,
And conversations about what makes hearts sing.

I'd give anything for one more giggle,
One more chat with you.

I took it all for granted,
Underestimated what grief could do.

You're gone,
I know... god I do know that is so.

Yet you still feel close by,
You still feel like you've not let me go.

The chats and the laughter have gone,
But you, often show me you're still here.

It can be a song, a feeling, a memory,
.... a something so dear.

To let me know that death can't separate us,
That our bond is just as beautifully strong.

And I know that when I die,
The warmth of your love will feel like being lost within my favourite song.

*the picture above is my favourite picture of my Nan and I, taken not long before her health really began to decline. I think of her always, and I know I shall miss her always 💋