Love thoughts

The first feeling

I thought being in love is a good thing
It was but just for a moment...
When I was 10 I had to go to my aunt house to play with my cousins they had a friend to them he was really handsome and he was my crush so I get really excited when I went just to saw him they were a great days ugh I wish that I get back to those moments
So the summer ends that year I had an exam so I studied hard and finally got a great mark the next summer was the best summer in my entire life..✨
And after that I went to middle school you now new school new place new friends new teachers... and my cousins and there friend had to come to the same school as me ugh that seems gonna the best year...
Well it was a good year but we didn't talk just eye contact you know I wasn't that brave to go and talk to him so 3 years past and I still have crush on him and didn't even talk one word with him the final year in my middle school we had a great time because one day we played truth or dare and they called me to enjoy them and I was really excited to finally talk to him,when he saw his first reaction was a little smile it was the first that I saw the amazing smile in my whole life and he said "come sit down here" I got really nervous when I was sitting next and he noticed that so he said to me "I won't bite so don't be nervous" and he laugh... a while after the bottle turns to me and a guy when he saw that his face turns read and he sighed and saying "this is boring let change" the other guy didn't want that and said "no wait it my turn relaxe dud we are having fun"and honestly I felt like he's jealous because he didn't had the chance to play with me  well it was my turn so he asked truth or dare and I said dare he laughed and said "I like this girl so could you kiss me in front of all my friends here" I got really mad in that moment and I was going to say in your dream but a hand push me up so I noticed it was him jack
He didn't say any world in the whole road then I asked "why did you push I was going" he cut my word and said "WHAT WHAT would you do hein kiss him really" so I laughed and said "No in his dream I'll never kiss some guy that I  know for like 10 min you're serious?? I'm not dumb" so when I said that he start looking at me in the eyes for like 10s and then left my eyes I got red in that moment I wish he didn't notice that but he did so he smiled and said "you really getting shy of me" I said no just I got like this because I'm angry" then he made that mmh you know when someone knows the reality but you still don't tell them that it true it was that sound «MMH» so he drives me home and he said to me good night with a smiley face and went ahh it was an amazing moment when I really talked to him for the first time
One day my aunt invited us to go to have dinner so we get ready and went to her when we she opened the door I saw Jack OMG my crush is here and we gonna have dinner time with my family so I sit next to him and his eyes were on me I got really nervous and I didn't ate anything but he was really handsome that night he got a black pant with black shirt and his messy hair with beautiful brown eyes just like the chocolate omg I can watch my whole life so the night was cool even if my dad asked so much about him like we were really in the interview room... so when we finished the dishes and those stuf I went to the bathroom so I opened the door and saw him watching his hand ugh those hands are big and mesclun so I said "sorry I'll comeback later" he said "no it okay I finished you can come" I answered "okay thank you, and by the way sorry I know my dad talked too much he asked you about everything » he laughed and said "no it okay that what does every father does" I think ge wasn't that happy like something happened and I didn't know the reason because during the dinner he didn't talked that much
When we got home I asked my brother "hey Jack today was weird there's something that I need to know" so he answered "not if your business go to sleep" I said "hey please he's my friend maybe I can help with it" "alright I'm gonna hey but don't tell anybody okay.. his mother is in the hospital she got really sick this time I think she has a cancer " I get choked like really I felt bad for him and sad because I can feel him right now because I had the same feeling when my aunt get the cancer omg that really sad so I went to bed and I couldn't sleep without thinking about him... the next day he came to school and he seems really sad and tired I really felt that.I really didn't want to go and talked to him because I didn't want to bother him so I went to class when I finished it I went to the library to take some books I noticed him sitting in the chair wearing a longue black jacket and black pants and having my favourite book in his hand so I went to him just to talk to him and ask about how's he feeling so I said «soit ends with us » he looked and me with a surprising face and said « how did you come here" I got angry because he seems like he wasn't happy to see me "I'm here to bring some books for school needing" "ah okay fine" "and you??what you're doing here" "I'm finishing this book" " it gonna break your heart" he said "already broken" "I really cried that much on this book the ending is really said" "so you know this book really goo I think We have the same energy you and me" i really like it when he said that we have the same energy so I tried to asked about why he's really calm and seems sad he didn't want to talk and I didn't want to push him to talk it alright one day he can do that
Tomas and Grace:
"I warn you I'll break your heart"
"Already broken"