Behind Closed Doors

XIX

Onikas Pov

I really did it.

I kissed her.

I didn't mean to I mean—It was impulse. But boy did it feel so good—my confession was really just me rambling but she confessed too.

Now we're back in the car, hands still together.

We sneaked shy glances at each other, I caught her eye and I immediately looked the other way. What do I do now?

We aren't dating—we kissed—twice. What goes on from here? She said she liked me—like dating liked and I definitely liked her but there were so many complications.

My dad doesn't know, if we go public I'm not sure how my old "friends" would react—that's even if she decides she actually wants to date me. What if she changes her mind? What if Kenzies right?

No—I can't like my insecurities ruin this for me.

But still what about—

"Stop overthinking it." I heard her whisper in my ear and I made a swift turn so both of our noses were touching.

"Huh?"I said in surprise. She shook her head smiling. I could see her grin—her smile made me feel better. "Stop overthinking what happened. We can talk about it later." She said moving a piece of my air out of my face. She was still smiling.

Why can't I be like that? So care free? She was as giddy as a little kid and I was worrying.

Robyn dropped me off and I said bye to them, Beyoncé stared at me a little extra long and I met her eye. She got out the car and walked me to my door.

"Please don't overthink Nika." She pleaded and I knew I was going to. I was so nervous—what now? What if she says she doesn't like me anymore and it was all some joke or some dream or—

"Stop getting into your own head. Look—" She looked back and forth like she was thinking.

"We can always hang out laterif you want—I'd say tonight but I feel like you'd want some time alone—I'm also about to pass out on your porch because I've been awake since 3am." She said laughing a little bit.

"I'd like that." I said and her eyes were settled on me. "Can I—well—can we—you don't have to I don't want you to overthink more—"

"You want to kiss me again?" I asked and she nodded frantically.

"I've wanted to kiss you again since we stopped our mini make out session in that closet." She said sighing.

I placed my hands on her shoulders and he leaned in and softly kissed me again. She pulled away and then kissed my forehead. "Don't worry." She saids firmly and I nod.

"Night Nika!" She hugs me quickly before jogging back to Robyn's car.

I shut my door and leaned up against it touching my lips softly. I kissed the girl I've been crushing on 3 times tonight and I haven't woken up from this amazing dream yet.

I walked more into my house and froze when I saw my farther.

"Hey—uh dad." I said and I realized he wasn't paying attention to me.

He had headphones and was dancing in his old man pjs. I laughed a little bit watching him realize i was looking as he took a slow bite of his cake.

He told the headphones off and smiled. "Nika! Hey! You ain't see me shake my ass to Mariah Carey did you?" He asked and I laughed sitting down.

"Even if I didn't you kinda just admited it to me outloud—you'd be a terrible criminal." I said and he nodded.

"Good thing I'm not! I definitely would've been caught—I'm also not that fast. Anyways how was that haunted house? Was it scary?" He asked taking another bite of his cake.