Sarah Paulson Mental Health One-shots

love me (D.S)

Today was like every other day, just with a little spice. I was currently laying on my couch, watching whatever was on the tv, it was a hot day so I decided to just wear an oversized T and underwear. The sun slowly started to go away as the rain started to pour, the movie was still going, it was a little horror movie. I was starting to fall asleep until I heard a buzz from my phone, I reached for it on the coffee table and check who it was

Diane👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩: Hey baby, I'm sorry I haven't texted you since morning work has been very busy, I'm heading back home rn.

I suddenly got butterflies by the name, even though she always calls me that, never fails to make a bitch flustered.

Me: oh it's fine Diane, I had a feeling it was something to do with work anyways, how was work btw.

*Diane👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 is calling*

I get confused on why she's calling but answer anyways, I know I'll get in trouble if I don't.

"Hey honey, I'm glad you called, I didnt feel like texting, so how was work?" I said with a stupid smile on my face

"Work was stressful as always, I'm almost home" she replies with her sweet, honey like voice

"Oh I'm sorry to hear that, maybe when you arrive, I can make it up to you?" I reply then bite my lip

"Oh honey I would love for you to do that but I'm really tired, you can make it up to me some other time" she says with an annoyed tone, then i hear a sigh

my smile fades away and I reply with a fake happy tone "oh okay! well, I'm gonna go ahead and hang up so we don't get you into a crash, drive safe love, it's raining, I love you"

"right, okay well I will, bye" she hangs up

*Diane👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 ended call*

huh? what was that? why didn't she say she loves me too? maybe she was tired and didn't hear me, yea..thats right she probably didn't hear me, but wouldn't she say it even if I didn't say it first? More of these stupid questions fill my mind

Its now 10:09 am, Diane still hasn't arrived back home, I was in bed waiting for her. I usually wait for her so we can do our night routine together. I wait for another 5 minutes then give up, I get up from my bed with a sigh and start heading to the bathroom, I start to slowly undress, I turn on the water to fill up the bath. I look at my body in the mirror, feeling disgusted of how I look, I slowly turn to the side still looking at myself, seeing my old cuts on the side of my thighs, tears start pouring from my eyes and start sobbing uncontrollably.

After crying for about 3 minutes I look at the tub and see that it's starting to get full, the water starts flowing down. Without turning to water off I step into the tub, laying myself in the tub, slowly disappearing in the water.

"you're ugly"

"youre nothing"

"no-one will never love you"

"the world is better without you"

"fatty"

"your worthless, USELESS"

"kill yourself"

More of the voice fill my head.

"Y/n Sweetheart?"

was the last thing I heard before my eyes start closing