Ranboo x Reader

chapter 10

I literally don't know what to do uhhhh-

Tw: periods? Ig if your afraid of blood and......... You guessed it aha... Self harm.
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(Y/ns pov)
I woke up to a horrible pain on my lower stomach and to my bedsheet looking like the flag of China so I knew that I sadly started my period after a long thinking and mentally hating this I got back into the real world by a sharp pain again so I walk to my bathroom in pain and did my business and put a pad on (listen pads are more comfortable but if you find tampons comfortable ig switch it out to tampon lol) I after a lot of courgement by my own brain to take a shower I did take one and threw on something comfortable

Outfit 1: I'd wear it dude.

Outfit: 2 🥸

Outfit 3: comfortable.

Outfit: 4

After I threw on the most comfortable outfit I could find, I put my hair up in a low pony tail since I didn't want to bother brushing my hair and put on some chapstick and went to the kitchen to start making food, I made some simple toast with chocolate on it and put it on the dining table yelling that the food was done. A while later while I was doing the dishes in pure pain I decided to drive to the air bnb since I trusted the kids with my house and I did it. I went to the air bnb where ranboo was currently streaming and the others out some where and  decided to join him in his stream.
A while in stream I just said out loud "I really in this moment want to die" and I got... A rather concerned face as expected from ranboo since hearing your good friend say they want to die isn't really that natural to hear I would expect that
"Are you okay?" Ranboo asked and truthfully I said no and in a really sketchy matter I said I have to be back not meaning to I think I scared ranboo by saying that. I was walking to the bathroom to do what you do in the bathroom and heard a slight knock from ranboo asking if I was fine and I said a yes but it sounded like I was crying because I was cause of emotions while being on my period and truthful horid pain of my cramps (hah bitch that's me)

He simply left and let me have some time, after I was done doing the deed and now switched where I stood to the sink I saw a razor.. And I started crying and locked in place because of the voice yelling at me to pick it up and start cutting my self
Voice in head = this line

Come on y/n you know you want to do it, pick it up you fucking whore, you look like a fat pig nobody would notice if you fucking died from all the blood you loose, come on you slut why would ranboo ever even like you anyway, come on you disgusting bitch do it you idiot.

After a lot of sobbing and the thoughts over flowing in my head I let it come over and do the best of me and start cutting.. 1 turned into 2 and 2 turned into 5 and more and more after I came to my sense from ranboo in the bathroom now and him yelling y/n really loudly I didn't notice that my whole arm was covered at this point and I was sobbing like a train reck, he looked at my arm and gave me a big hug while I just cried on his shoulder

You fucking cry baby, you are such a dumbass can't even hold it in infront of some

At that point I was yelling at my own brain out loud and I heard a stinging pain, I saw ranboo washing my cuts to wrap them up
"I... I'm sorry ranboo" I said while wiping my tears "it's fine" he said and I heard the sadness in his voice. After he finished wrapping my cuts we noticed that everyone came home "hi guys!" I said happily, glad I wore a long sleeve today and they also said hi back "hey y/n do you want to go take a walk?" Ranboo said and I excitedly said yes.

-at the middle of the walk-
At this point it was night since we came out to take a walk at 7pm and while me and ranboo were just talking about random streaming stuff while we saw a cute park where we decided to go in for fun, when we got in the park we saw a forest in the back of it and ranboo being the idiot he is decided to say "oh we should explore the forest" and me being also a idiot said yes, we went in the forest and saw a beautiful waterfall and a lake and... A picnic mat filled with food under fairy lights (listen this is my fucking dream date)
Kinda like this but switch the butterflies for more aesthetic fairy lights and good food on the picnic mat

Turn out he planned all of this
And it was a date, I couldn't say no to this of course so I squeeled in joy and hugged ranboo
During the little picnic date we talked about more cool and indepth questions like soulmates
"Hey y/n do you believe in soul mates?" Ranboo quickly said and I responded in a questionable tone saying "depends, which kind? Like love soul mates or platonic ones?"
And it lead to a farther more depth one morphing into scary stories which I liked. After the picnic date was over we silently just stared at the stars not talking for a few minutes and I liked it like that.. Just silently looking at the stars near a lake with someone you like after a few minutes we stood up and ranboo said "hey y/n I like you" and he couldn't see it but my eyes glistened in joy and I looked at ranboo and said I liked him too, he smiled like a idiot and I didn't notice this but at this point we were almost going to kiss so I made it official and closed the gap.

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HAH YOU RATS YOU FOOL YA THINK YOUR GOING TO SEE HOW THIS ENDS? WELL CH3CK FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER SCHEDULED TO BE UPLOADED TOMORROW

WORD COUNT: 1070

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