Little Secrets

Chapter fifty-Four

Lilac's POV

Rolling over pick up my phone seeing I have no notifications. I sigh 29 days till I'm off to college I was excited. I haven't started anything or picked out things for my apartment. Rolling out of bed I walk to the bathroom stripping from my clothes and hopping in to the shower. After I shower I get dressed putting on black skinny jeans with a white crop top and white slip on vans. Leaving my room I walk down stairs. I haven't heard from Drake in a while. But I have a feeling of what's going on. I don't know where he is. So it's not like I can show up. And beat his ass.

Walking into the kitchen I walk straight to the fridge pulling out strawberry's and pineapple. Before I hop up on the counter pulling out my phone while popping strawberries and pineapples in to my mouth. While scrolling through Instagram . When I come across the people you may know and see picture of Alana. Clicking on her page I'm in shock when I see pictures of her and drake together. Scrolling I see pictures of them laying in bed, on dates, holding hands. Tears well in my eyes as I see a picture from 2 days ago kissing. The same day he was fucking me he went off and is doing god knows what with her. I only knew cause it was the same shirt he was wearing and the hickey I had left on his neck. Closing my phone I slam it on the counter putting the fruit back in the fridge. Before grabbing it and walking up the stairs to Veronica's room.

  "Veronic- ahhhh" I said covering my eye.

"I had no idea you guys were fucking. But get in to it girl." I said slowly backing out the room with my hands over my eyes not wanting to see Conner and Veronica fucking. I walk out of her room making my way to my room where I decide to take matters into my own hands I open my phone an and go to Drake contact where I shook him a message

Lilac- Hi I haven't heard from you in a while please call me I need to talk to you.

  I reread the message before pressing send I hope for a response soon but I honestly have no idea what I would say. I look up when I hear a knock on the door 

  "Come in." I say as the door opens and Veronica pokes her head in where I shoot her a smirk "you dirty whore."

  "Listen I-" she speaks but I cut her off

  "Bitch I'm not even worried about it y'all do you. I've known for a while ." I say and she sighs

"That's no what k was gonna say I was gonna tell yo ass to knock." She laughs "what's up girl?" I sigh before I begin to speak

" so like 2 days ago I fucked Drake and now he's back with Alana I guess. Even tho I told him he could come back to me I just want him to be better. And we had a whole conversation about it. But I guess it didn't really mean anything to him because he just went right back to her V it hasn't even been a week and he's went back to her."

"Baby I'm sorry. But he is so cokes out he probably doesn't even care if I'm bing honest. All he's probably worried about is is next fix babe."she said matter factly

"And fucking Alana apparently. A bitch who looks just like me. She could be my fuckin carbon copy V"I said with slight anger in my voice. The more I thought about it the angrier I got. Then I was throw into a whirlwind of thoughts.

"V o gotta talk to him." I said looking down at my hands and checking my phone to see no text

" Bitch I think you better get tested you don't know what els he's been fuckin or what he's gone now." She stated with a look of disgust." He's out here probably raw doggin that bitch. " she said. And I nodded in agreement.

"Yeah I'll make a doctors appointment. I also gotta get more birth control too." I said quietly. B leaned in wrapping her arms around me.

" I love you and I'll always be here for you. I know these last year had been a lot and your going through a lot. But you strong don't let some coked out boy duck with your head. He need help and you can't help him when he doesn't want it. He has to want to be clean and with you. But he doesn't so you love have to handle you and work on you. He will come to you when he's ready." She said lovely too me but What if he doesn't and he really chooses her over me. I thought yo my self.

I sigh and lean more in to Veronica listening to the steadiness of her breathing.