Little Secrets

Chapter eightteen

Drakes POV

Walking into school I spot Lilac at her locker pulling out books. I'm not sure if i should approach her or not. I know we're together but it the idea of walking up to her and being all cuddly like how we were yesterday makes my insides turn. I didn't want the attention of dating some one new since Payton. Because that ended awful. I keep walking and I go to walk pass her and she grabs my arm making me yank my arm away and the smile that was placed on her face when she first saw me fell. I sigh knowing I just fucked up. But I really can't do this. What the fuck was I thinking getting involved with her.

"What's wrong with you?" She asked me in a tone I could quite place the emotion.

"Nothing." I said faking irritation. She sighed.

"Are you sure?" She pushed.

"Nothing wrong with me. Why do you even care?" I say a little louder then I should have drawing a few peoples attention.

"Because-" she stops her self "you know what never mind." She turns around shutting her locker and walking away. I really just did that. Sighing I walk to my locker grabbing my stuff and heading to my first period. I really wish I hadn't said that to her. Walking in to first period I sit there blocking out what the teacher was saying the whole class period. Maybe I shouldn't have flipped on her. Maybe I should talk to her. But would she even what to talk to me. Would I want to talk to me after being rude because I can't get my shit together. Sighing I hope she will understand.

In the middle of third the period I had before lunch I pull out my phone thinking of what I could text Lilac Because there is no way I'm talking to her in front of all those people at lunch. After typing and retyping the message of what I want to say like 5 times I finally get it right and press send.

Me- Can I please talk to you at lunch?

Waiting for her to respond she starts typing and it takes a while so I know she has a lot to say then the bubble goes away and I sigh putting my phone down. Then it vibrates on the desk and my hand shoots to grab it.

Lilac😍🥵- Why so you can take your anger out on me some more? Yeah I think the fuck not.

Sighing I should have know she wouldn't make this easy. I start typing.

Me- please just let me talk to you. I'll explain everything.

Lilac😍🥵- why can't you tell me now? I thought we were good. Did I do something wrong?
Lilac😍🥵- I thought we were together?

Me- Lilac please just let me talk to you at lunch. Meet me at my car. Please just let me explain.

Lilac😍🥵- Okay

I sigh hoping that I have the courage to tell her why. To tell her why I can't. I just hope I didn't fuck up to bad. I groan and put my head down till the end of class.

Once the bell Rings I swear I never ran out of the class rooms so fast. Speed walking to my locker I throw my stuff in and slam in and basically run to my car. I really started problem with her and we haven't even been together more then 2 days.

Sitting in my car I wait for her to show. Once I see her walking about the school with her long curly hair flowing down her waist in a tight black skirt that's a little above her knee that accentuates her curves matches with a maroon top and cardigan and vans. She makes her way to my car and the whole time I can't help but watch her move like a goddess. I hope I didn't fuck this up. Before she reaches the car I get out and open the door allowing her to get in. She put her purse next to her feet and mumbles a thank you.