BROKEN

Chapter 2

(Taehyung's pov)

Everyone is having dinner downstairs but i am not hungry. I barely eat anyways. Maybe that's why i am this skinny.

I decided to take a shower. I took out a pair of shorts and an oversized white t-shirt. I went in the bathroom and opened the water. I turned it to hot water.

It has been so long since i last got a hot shower. At home she never let me use it because it was 'a waste of gas on an useless human'.

I took off my mask and looked at me in the mirror. You must be wondering why i am wearing a mask? Its because i have scars. Alot of scars on my face made by her. I should not but i am ashamed of those marks. It makes me feel more ugly than i already am. I stared at my face disgusted.

It was all because of this face and body that i was hated. All because of being....me.

Why? Why do i need to be like this? What did i do to god? I never did something bad consciously. I always do my best. But i am never enough. Never.

I signed seeing the tears brimming in my eyes. Why am i this weak? I cannot even stand against her without breaking down or crying.

I finally snapped out of my thought. I undress myself and stepped into the shower. I immediately relaxed. For one minute i forgot about all my worries. Just focusing on the water falling on my sore body relaxing it.

After 10 minutes in the shower i finally stepped out thinking it was enough. I wore my clothes and layed on my bed thinking about what should i do next.

First i need to find a job. But i did not finish school i will not get a good one... Fuck...
Maybe work in a small shop or something for the time being? Yes it is a good idea.

When i get enough money i will leave this house- well more like MANSION- i was so shocked when i first saw it. I thought i mistaken houses.

I will find an apartment and work until i die i guess. I cannot seem to find a better future for me anyway. Just.... Living. More like surviving.

I slowly driftted to sleep.

Next day

I slowly stear up from my sleep. I sat up from the bed rubbing my eyes trying to get rid of the sleepiness. I finally got up and checked the time. 8am.

I never got such a good sleep in years. I walk to the attached bathroom and did my morning routine. I also apllied my cream for my scars. It is slowly fading away but it is still clearly visible. I sighed

I can't stay here too long. At some point they will ask me about my mask and i do not want to answer this. I just can't. But i can not also just stay in this room now can i?

It would be disrespectful. And at some point i will need to eat. UGH WHY IS IT SO HARD. I SHOULD HAVE JUST DIED.

I took a deep breath to calm myself down. I took a quick shower and put on an oversized hoodie with a pair of shorts that reached my knee.

I don't have much clothes. When i will get some money i should buy some. Yeah i should. All of my clothes are too big for me. I put on my mask and took a deep breath trying to calm down my anxiety