harry styles imagines

You're insecure

i literally have no excuse to why i haven't been updating besides that my mental health is down the toilet, and i didn't have the motivation to do literally anything. im sorry- But on another note, LOUIS TOMLINSON IS 30 YEARS OLD!? WHERE DID THE TIME GO? It makes me wanna cry everytime i think about it. I hope you all enjoyed the holidays :)

i also hope you enjoy this imagine. It's not that long, but im already running out of ideas.
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Your POV:

It used to be just a couple times a week... Then, it turned into every chance i can get. I'm contantly looking at myself through a mirror, or any reflection really to look at the thing i hate most in this world. My body. I can't help it. Trust me when i say that i've tried stopping.. but its so addicting because reflections are everywhere. Harry almost caught me one time.. but like always, i lied myself out of it.

Flashback

"Hey Y/N, i was wondering if- what are you doing?"

"Oh, hi Harry! I was just um.. looking to see if this outift looked okay to go out."

And he belived me.

"You look amazing babe! You always do."

"Thanks Harry." I said with a fake smile.

Flashback over

I just keep thinking about all the other people that Harry has dated, and they all look so much better than i do. It's not fair. I wanna be pretty.

Harry's POV:

Finaly i got out of the studio. I've been there ALL DAY recording ontop of writing. I love it, but it's really tiring. I'd rather be at home with my beautiful girlfriend.

I pulled up into the driveway and see no lights on in the house. I was confused until i realized the time.. It was already 12:15 at night. I didn't think much of it, and just went inside so i can go straight to bed. Im tired.

I step inside and take my shoes off when i hear noises upstairs. "Y/N?" I say. The noise stops.

I go upstairs and open the bedroom door to see Y/N in bed.

"Babe?"

"Yes Harry?"

"Why aren't you asleep yet? What were you doing?"

"Um.. Getting my pajamas on.."

It doesn't sound very convicing, but i decide not to push it any further.

I get on my side of the bed after taking everything off except for my boxers. I slide in beside Y/N and turn off the light.

I reach over her side and put my hand on her stomach when i feel her flinch, then tense?

"Are you okay?"

"Fine."

I finally decide to see whats going on and turn on the light to look over and see her eyes red, like she had been crying.

"Baby? Whats going on.. You've been crying."

She hesitates and looks at me like shes afraid.

"Don't be mad.. please."

I reach for her hand. "I won't, i promise."

"Harry, i hate he way i look. Everything about me. I keep thinking about all the other girls that you have dated.. and it hurts because i know i will never look like any of them. I wanna feel pretty. I want to be confident, and not feel like i look like shit all of the time. I don't feel like im enough for you anymore Harry, and it hurts me more then anything."

I look at her for a few seconds and then reach out for her to hold her. She starts crying as soon as she puts her head in my neck.

She soon calms down so its just her sniffles. I pull back a little so i can look at her.

"Y/N.. here me out here. YOU are the most beautiful woman i have ever layed my eyes on. I love everything about you, and it hurts me to know that you don't think the same way. Baby, i love you more then anyone in this world. I wouldn't care if you had 12 fingers, and 2 left feet. You are still the same girl i fell in love with."

"Thank you Harry.. That helps me a little bit more."

"I promise we'll get this figured out. Im gonna help you anyway i can" I say kissing her forehead

I pull her back down so she was laying down again so i can wrap my arms around her again. She tenses again.

"I love you, all of you." I whisper in her ear.

She relaxes at my touch, and soon enough we fall asleep together.