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Scared and Jealous

Y/N POV:

Harry has been really distant lately and i don't know why.. he tells me that he has bad days at work and is stressing, but it's not the same. i feel like i'm letting him down. but i know i can never tell him that because i don't want to bother him. it's always been that way with my feelings. i don't let anyone in because i'm scared. everyone has left me in the past for saying how i'm feeling, i don't want that happening with Harry. My ex left me with no reason why leaving me heart broken. i imagine it's because i would always tell him my feelings, so i just decided to be different with Harry. Be quiet.

Thoughts are constantly through my head. "Harry doesn't want you" "Harry will leave." He's cheating on you." i just want it to stop. it's all overwhelming me and stressing me out.

Its currently 7:47pm and Harry said he was gonna be home by 7:30.. i don't know where he is. what if he is with another girl? i hear the front door open and close and immediately wipe the tears that are going down my face to make it look like i'm okay. "Hey Y/N" "Hi Harry, how was work?" "Stressful.. as always." i look at him with i guess a worried look because right after he walked over to me. ""What's wrong?" he asks "Nothing. Nothing is wrong." i lie. "Are you sure? You seem.. upset and stressed." 'how does he know these things?' "I'm good, i promise." he still doesn't look pleased but ends the conversation. "i made your dinner, it's in the fridge." i say. "Thank you, love." he smiles. As he walks away i think to myself, 'this is gonna be harder then the other days. i know it.'

Harry's POV:

I walk into the kitchen to get my food that Y/N had prepared for me. I sit down when i hear footsteps. Y/N walls in with a sad smile and goes to get a drink from the fridge. "Baby, will you stay with me? please. i don't like eating alone." i ask. she smiles and nods at me. "So, how was your day?" i see her hesitate to answer before she says "it was fine. i'm really tired tho." i looked at her and smiled. "why don't you go up to the bedroom and wait for me? we can watch a show and cuddle if you want. She then nods and goes to turn off the TV in the other room and heads up the stairs to our room. I need to figure out what is up. whether she likes it or not.

*later*

I go into our room to see Y/N under the covers hair covering her face. i gently get into the bed when i see her flinch. i look at her confused "Sorry Harry, you scared me a bit." "It's alright kitten." i move closer to her and wrap my arm around her waist as we watch her favorite show. I keep looking down at her and she is just zoning out. "Babe?" no answer. "Hey, Y/N." shake her. she looks up at me and looks back down at the show. 'that's it. i need to figure this out.'

Y/N POV:

Harry turns off the tv and i whine. "Hey! it was just getting to the good part!" i say. he look at me with a weird look and i look back at him confused. "What's the matter?" i ask. "The question is, what's the matter with you?" i freeze. "What do you mean?" i hear him sigh and he pulls his arms off my body and pulls me up against the headboard. "Y/N, i know something is wrong. you keep zoning out and look sad. please tell me what's going on?" I look away from him and my eyes are on the ground. This only made him more worried. Tears start to well up in my eyes when i feel a pair of arms wrap around me again. "Hey, don't cry. it's okay." i move my head to the crook of his neck as he rubs my back soothingly.

Harry's POV:

She calmed down and all i hear is little hiccups coming from her. She doesn't make eye contact with me so i ask her if she can look at me. she shakes her head no. "Please?" i whisper. She looks up at me with her teary eyes. i wipe some tears off of her cheek with my thumb. "Y/N, What's wrong? Why are you crying?" she doesn't say anything which makes me even more concerned. "Baby. Please. I want to help you. i don't want to see you upset." tears start falling again and i wipe them away. "Please just let me in." "I'm scared Harry." she speaks up. "Scared of what love?" "I don't want to tell you.. i don't want you to leave. I-i can't handle you leaving. you are my world and i don't want the same thing that happened with my ex to happen with you.. i just lost so many people. i'm tired. i can't." she says shaking. "kitten.. i'm sorry that you lost so many people. you don't deserve that. but you shouldn't be afraid to tell me anything. i promise you i'm not going to go anywhere. i don't want to.. please Y/N?" she hesitated while finally nodding at me. "Harry.. i'm scared of falling in love. i'm scared of being the only one that tries in the relationship. i'm scared of not.. not being enough for you. it's all just an endless motion of not feeling anything and i'm so tired of feeling this way. it hurts." i hug her tighter to help her calm down again before she has a panic attack or anything bad. she finally calms down again and i start to speak. "Y/N.. i love you so much and i don't want to do anything that will hurt you. you are perfect and worth everything in the world to me. i'm going to try so hard to keep you here because honestly, i don't know what i'd do without you. you showed me what it's like to really love a girl and i could never thank you for that." she looks up at me with the a sad smile and hugs me tighter. "Thank you harry. i really needed to hear that." "No more secrets, okay? you can tell me anything and i'm always going to be here for you. always. i love you so much Y/N." "I love you too Harry." I snuggle up close to him and rest my head onto his chest. i hear his soft heart beat and makes me even more tired and drift off to sleep. i hear harry one last time before i fall asleep.

"You are my forever."

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