i'll pull myself up by my own fucking bootstraps and still collapse on the cold white tile, scratching my fingers against the corner of tiles, pulling and prying so hard to find validation that i'll ruin my nails, blood speckling the tile in little drops. next time i manage to pull myself up it'll hurt twice as much, and the aftermath with be twice as painful.
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