Please Don't Save Me [Bakudeku]

The Attempt

IZUKU POV:(Chapter 1)
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!!TW!!
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Attempted suicide
Blood
Descriptive scenes
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Only a week ago my mum commited suicide by hanging herself, I was petrified looking at her, I had took the note from the side table and read it..

'Dear Izuku, you are worthless and this is why I've done this, you killed me, your own mother, I couldn't bare looking at your stupid ugly crying face any longer, your not going to become a hero, your too useless and noone would except someone as fat as you, gosh, I sold all the food so you can finally become less fat since noone likes a fat hero, also I let a surprise in the box for you, good bye you useless brat.
From inko'

Of course it was my fault, what wouldn't be my fault like honestly,i looked over and grasped the medium sized box, opening it...
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There they lay
A beautiful silver gun and a packet full of razors with another note in it.
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I took the note in my palms and scanned the page.

'Just incase your stupid ass actually decides to do it, I'll be looking down at you from heaven to see you falling in hell :]'

It's been a week and I've planned the perfect surprise for kacchan's birthday
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*RING RING RING RING RING RING RI-*

I charged up one for all at 5% and smashed my hand down onto my alarm clock, not like I will use it afterwards..

"Gosh today's the day.. "I whispered with a hint of happiness , I walked over to my desk and ripped out 4 pages of A5 paper, I snatched the pen from my pencil case, 4 notes, to kacchan,.. Mr aizawa.. 1A..... and... All might.... I ripped out a piece of hair once finished and placed it with All mights note.

I scribbled out the notes messily and placed them neatly on my desk,smiling as I did so.

Dear kacchan
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Since next week is your birthday I thought I would give you an early gift to celebrate, so I thought all night long and decided to do the one thing you've practically been begging for, I don't really want to take a Swan dive though so instead I'll bleed out since the red means I love you.

From the useless nerd
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Dear sensei
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I completed all my essays, I'm so so so so so so sorry for being such a useless bother in your life, I'm sorry I let our class down and let Kacchan get kidnapped in the training camp, if only I wasn't so useless I would of been able to save him before he got captured and you wouldn't have had to waste your time in preparing a rescue mission, I did everybody's work so they don't need to be wasted with me, they all had a wonderful time at the mall I heard, please give them all top marks either way is my only wish towards you sensei.

From your most useless student
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Dear Class 1A
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I really hope you all had a wonderful time at the mall, I did all your essays for you so you don't have to do it whilst your celebrating my death, you should all be getting top marks, it was my death wish, your all going to make wonderful heroes, make sure to do your best so that you all succeed in what you came to UA for.

From Deku
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Dear allmight
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All might, please take my hair and give One for All to a person more worthy than me so that they can become the best hero ever whilst I leave everyone alone so everyone can finally get along with each other without my useless self being in the way, live long please.

From Izuku Midoriya
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I turned towards my bathroom and reached my hand onto the door knob and pushed it open slightly.

I walked inside and crouched down next to my sink cabinet and opened the door, revealing the exact items I needed.
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My pack or razors
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My gun
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My pocket knife
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And my anti depressants
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Standing up, I walked over my bath and switched the taps on.

I lift my t-shirt off and placed it neatly folded on my toilet lid, I grabbed my razor packet and grasped a sharper one tugging at it when finally pulling it out and lowering it to my wrist.

The bath was filled up so I watched carefully as I turned the taps off

Metal was now digging into my palm as I sat down in the cold water, my arms now resting on the side of the white tub.

I lifted up my left arm and dived the blade into my forearm, twisting my arm round as I do so, the blade slices through my skin so satisfyingly, I then start to puncture my forearm.
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I ran out of my room on my left forearm so I started to slit my wrists mercilessly.
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I feel a hot liquid running down my face, it tastes salty when it falls on my lips and slips into my mouth and onto my tongue.

I move down and start on my thighs, my tears are blocking everything, I can't see and the darkness is drawing me closer.
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My arms go weak, the bath water is now completely stained red and and my blade falls under the depths of the water grazing my shin.
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I reach over to grab my anti depressants but they slide out of my grasp and fall on the floor making a large crash in the silent air.

A knock on my door startles me to my core, but it slowly fades when I hear footsteps retreating from my door, or what I had assumed

I was somewhat relieved, my vision was now fading but I heard the footsteps come back but with..... More...?

Panic came back but I couldn't stop my vision from disappearing when a large bang had followed with the thumping of footsteps.

Then I couldn't focus anymore and everything disappeared and went black.
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1055 words!
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