SLS #1: No Boyfriend Since Break ✔️

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

Destiny will do everything to hurt me, to pissed me and to do everything to ruined my day. Patuloy na naglalaro ang tadhana sa mga nagdaang araw. Linggo na ang nakalipas simula ng McDonalds incidents na iyon.

I have nothing to do with that but to let out a heavy sigh and keep thinking what to do next. Kung ano ang gagawin kapag nagtagpo ulit ang aming mga landas.

Hindi ko rin naman masisi si Zyair kung gano'n ang treatment niya sa akin. In the first place I wish for it. I want him gone... hiningi ko na mawala siya sa buhay, and now, he was happy with Natalia. But Natalia is just using him. Ginagamit lang siya ni Natalia para umangat at magkaroon ng magandang buhay. Tanga lang ni Zyair dahil hindi niya napapansin iyon.

I let out a sharp sigh while looking at Zyair's house. I saw Tita Shane and Natalia talking, happily. Nag-uusap silang dalawa habang kumakain, nasa garden silang dalawa na parang donya na nag-sun bating.

How I wish Zyair will found out what their intentions. I won't tell him because I wanted him to find out the whole truth. I am worried but I don't want him to be mad at me. Baka isipin niya na sinisiraan ko sila Tita Shane at Natalia sa kaniya.

"You're worried to him?"

Napabaling ang tingin ko kay Mommy na nagsalita mula sa aking likuran. I didn't noticed her. Siguro sa sobrang pag-iisip ko ng kung anu-ano ay hindi ko napansin ang presensiya ni Mommy na paparating.

"Hindi mo ako napansin?" She asked as she sat down besides me. I nooded my head and looked away.

It's true that I'm to occupied not to noticed her presence, and she know the reasons is... I know what is the reason why I'm like this. Palaging tulala at parating nag-iisip... sa kaniya lang ako naging ganito.

"You love that man right?" she asked again.

I didn't say anything. I just keep quite and let out a deep sigh.

"Bakit hindi mo ipaglaban..." Mommy suggested.

Ipaglaban? How funny, noong panahong siya ang lumalaban sa aming dalawa, ako ang sumuko. Ako ang nagtulak sa kaniya papalayo. Ngayong sumuko na siya ay lalaban na lang ako bigla at kukunin siya? Kapal naman ng mukha ko no'n diba?

"I already pushed him away, Mom. I told him to stay away from me. Hiniling kong mawala na siya ng tuluyan sa buhay ko..." My voice cracked as I said those words. "It's my fault why I'm hurt right now. It's my fault and I'll be the one to be blame why I'm hurt and crying like a shit."

She didn't say anything but she just give me a tight hug and kiss me on my forehead. "Do not blame yourself, Alora. You did that on purspose."

"Ginawa ko lang naman iyon para mapalapit kaming dalawa ni Nat eh... dahil buong akala ko ay totoo sila pero nagkamali ako. I regret that I give them a trust. Nagtiwala ako kahit sa kanila kahit sinasabi ng isip ko na hindi. Sana sinunod ko lang iyong utak ko, Mom."

Para akong isang bata na nagsusumbong sa nanay dahil inagawan ng candy. Pero hindi naman candy si Zyair at hindi naman siya inagaw sa akin. Tinulak ko siya papalayo kaya siya nawala sa akin.

"I want him back, Mommy. Gusto kong bumalik siya sa akin pero hindi ko alam kung papaano..." Kumawala ako ng yakap kay Mommy at muling tumingin sa bahay niya kung saan sina Nat nakatira. "Ang unfair naman nila ni Tita, they're using Zyair to gain the wealth they wanted."

"I know that man is not stupid. He will found out the truth soon, and if that times happened Shane and Natalia will be devastated."

"When they will change? Kailan sila magbabago? May pag-asa pa bang magbago sila, Mommy?" tanong ko habang ang tingin ay nasa garden pa rin.

Natatanaw ko lang ang garden nila Zyair mula rito sa Veranda ng bahay.

"People are tend to change their personality and attitude. Pero sa Tita at sa pinsan mo... hindi ko alam kung kailan. Pilit naman siguro silang nagbabago, Nak pero hindi talaga eh. Wala silang character development." I turned my gaze on my mother's side. She was looking at Tita and Natalia's direction also, she let out a heavy sigh. "Our mother raised her well but I don't know what happened to her. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nagkaganiyan siya... mahal na mahal siya nina Nanay at Tatay."

I saw sadness crossed Mommy eyes. I know she was hurt from her past and I can't myself but being hurt also. Nasasaktan ako tuwing nakikita kong nasasaktan si Mommy. Hindi ko kayang nakikita siyang malungkot o nasasaktan. She was my mother, my bestfriend, my father to leaned on, and that's the reason why I don't like seeing her being hurt or sad.

"Mom, we can go a vacation to your province and visit lolo and lola's grave." I suggested. "I know you already miss them and I am too."

Mommy just smiled at nooded her head for an answer. She just keep staring Tita at let out a deep sigh again and again. I'm a little bit worried because it is not healthy for her to be sad or to think some stressful things.

"Let's go..." Inalalayan kong maglakad papasok sa loob ng bahay si Mommy. I've decided na ipasok siya dahil alam kong malalim na naman ang iniisip nito habang nakatingin sa kapatid niya. Baka nga sinisisi na niya ang sarili niya kung bakit nagkagano'n ang kapatid niya. Wala naman siyang kasalanan kung bakit naging matapobre at mangagamit ang kapatid niya eh. It's Tita decision that she choose those paths. She choose the wrong paths and teach her daughter to be a bad one— to be a bad person. Tita Shane is using Natalia too, she used Natalia to gain a wealthier life. To live a life that full of expensive luxuries.

I really wonder why her husband left her. What is the reason behind? Does because of it's attitude? Her personality? If yes, I pity for her. The the will come and Zyair will found out the truth, and if that time comes they will put in trouble again.

Life is not about money, it's all about our purspose in this world. About our attitude and behavior. Hindi natin madadala iyong kayamanan natin sa langit o sa impyerno kapag namatay tayo. Oo, kasali ang impyerno dahil hindi naman natin alam kung saan tayo patutungo kapag nawala na tayo sa mundong ito. We can't conclude. Sabi ng iba, kapag mabait ka raw sa langit ka pupunta at kapag masama ka at maitim ang budhi ay sa impyerno raw. Naniniwala naman ako ro'n dahil siya lang ang may hawak ng katotohanan. I trusted him and I know he has plan to my aunt and cousin.

I know you have plans for them but please save them from trouble, make them change before it's too late.

I let out a heavy sigh before entering my room. Kakalabas ko lang galing sa kuwarto ni Mommy, hinatid ko siya at pinagpahinga na. Umupo ako sa kama ko at kinuha ang cellphone ko na nakapatong sa beside table para tignan kung may tumawag na o nag-text.

And to my surprise, I saw 10 missed calls and 10 messages from him. My eyes widened while reading his messages for me. I can't believed it.

Engr. Zyair:
Alora, where are you?

Engr. Zyair:
Can we talk? Please!

Engr. Zyair:
I already know everything.

Engr. Zyair:
I'm waiting at Dainty's Club.

Hindi ko na pinagpatuloy ang pagbabasa at nakita ko na lang sarili na naghahanap ng damit na maisusuot ngayon. Zyair wanted to talk and to see me. This is a chance kaya bakit ko papalampasin? Sinabi niya sa text na alam na niya at masaya ako ro'n. Thank God, he already opened his eyes from lies. I'm so happy... I really happy... so happy.