SLS #1: No Boyfriend Since Break ✔️

Chapter 25

Chapter 25

What do you want from me?" tanong ko kay Daddy na kakarating lang. Marahan akong tumingin sa kaniya at hangang ngayon ay hindi pa rin maipinta ang mukha ko. Naiinis pa rin ako sa kaniya matapos niya akong itanggi.

"Layuan mo si Zyair," ani nito.

Hindi na ako magugulat sa kaniyang sasabihin. I expected this to happened.

Mapakla akong tumawa sa harap niya. Maraming tao ang nakatingin sa amin ngunit isinawalang bahala ko iyon. I don't care with them because I don't give a shit.

"Why? Because he was my brother? O baka ayaw mo lang mabahidan ng kahihiyan ang pangalan mo?" Paghahamon na tanong ko sa kaniya. "Sabihin mo nga sa akin, Dad, anak mo ba talaga si Zyair or inako mo lang ang pagiging ama sa kaniya? It's been five years since you left me and it's impossible na anak mo siya, unless... unless niloloko mo si Mommy noong kayo pa or ako ang hindi mo anak. Remember you denied me in front of him, you choose him over me."

"It's not like that, Alora—"

"Then, tell me the reason why you keep denying me in front of everyone? Kinakahiya mo ba ako bilang anak mo? Ha?" Putol ko sa sasabihin niya sana.

"Alora..."

"You know, Dad when I was young I never felt your love, I never felt that I have a loving and caring father. You always make me feel that I am enough to you, me and my mother isn't enough for you. If we are enough, you won't find someone to fulfill your desire, to fulfill your needs. You left my mother because of his mother, I am right?"

I closed my eyes shut and let out a heaved sigh. "Well, I don't need your freaking explaination because we already move on from that nightmares."

"I'm sorry..."

Binuksan ko ang aking mga mata at humarap sa mga mata niya. "What sorry can do if the damage has already done?"

He gulped, and muttered. "I can make it to  —"

"No thanks! I don't need it," marahan kong usal. "Gawin mo na lang iyan sa magiging apo mo kay Zyair... his child need your attention and love. I'm old enough to feel your love, to get your attention."

Kinuha ko na iyong bag ko at tumayo. Tumingin siya sa akin at may munting sakit na namumutawi sa kaniyang mata. Bakit nasasaktan siya? Nasasaktan ba siya dahil aalis ako? Tsk. Anong pakialam niya kung aalis ako? It's not of his fvcking business.

Back then, I love my father so much but now? Hatred... galit na galit ako sa ginawa niya sa amin. He abandoned me and my mother. I hate him so much!

"I'll leave now. I'm done talking to you and please don't tell to your SON that I am leaving. I don't want him to hurt, I want him to be happy with his soon to be family."

Yes, I am leaving him again.

I turned my back on him and started to walk towards the entrance of the cafe. Yes, pinapunta ko siya rito sa cafe ko dahil gusto kong ipakita sa kaniya na successful ko. Nagawa kong abutin ang mga pangarap ko na wala siya... na walang ama na gumagabay sa akin. Gusto kong ipamukha sa kaniya na kung gaano na ka-succesful ang anak niyang iniwan niya noon.

Forgiveness? He keep denying me, so why would I forgive him? He's a scumbag father. The worst father I've known.

Sumakay na ako sa kotse ako at nagmaneho patungo sa kung saan. Maybe, I will go somewhere else? My mother province or I will stay in my condo unit for a while. I will call mommy later and tell her where am I, so that she will not think of me.

I am not in the mood to work right now, and I'm not in the mood to talk to others, or to someone even him. Ayaw ko muna silang maka-usap dahil baka hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko.

I'm not mad because he impregnated Natalia, I am mad at him because my father chooses him, choose his family over me. Galit ako at hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili na magalit sa kaniya, at the same time nandidiri ako sa sarili ko.

There's a possibility na anak siya ni Daddy and I don't want to enter a relationship with him because he was my siblings, my brother. Siguro lalayo na lang ako, aalis ako para walang gulo at para na rin sa kapakanan nila, sa kapakanan ng nakararami.

I was here at my condo unit, laying on my bed while looking at the ceiling. Zyair keep calling on my phone but I stop myself to answer his call, I ignore any call from him, from everyone except Mommy's call.

I did not tell Patricia where am I right now because Zyair might ask her where Am I. Knowing Patricia, matabil ang dila niya at hindi niya mapigilan ang sarili na magkwento sa kaniyang pinsan.

Maybe soon, I will tell her but not now.

Napatingin ako sa cellphone ko na tumutunog, nakapatong ito sa beside table. Kumunot ang noo ko nang makita ko ang isang unknown number na tumatawag.

Sino 'to?

Paano ko malalaman kung hindi ko sasagutin? But what if, siya ito? Ano ang sasabihin ko kung siya nga? But what if he's not? Hindi ko malalaman kung hindi ko sasagutin.

I let out a heavy sigh before answering the call. I put it on a loud speaker and did not speak any words. I waited the person who called me talk but it's already 2 minutes and the caller didn't say anything.

I took a deep breath and cleared my throat. "Hello who is this?"

"Alora..."

Napatahimik ako nang marinig ko ang malalim niyang boses. Fuck it! Siya nga!

"Where are you? I've been looking for you... why you didn't answering my phone call?" He was asking me, and I can't answer him right now or let's just say I can't utter any words to answer his questions.

"Alora, please talk to me. I miss you so much... so damn much!" He huskily said. "Please come back! I miss you!"

Hindi ko namalayan na tumutulo na pala ang mga luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan. Mahina akong humihikbi habang nakikinig sa boses ni Zyair. He miss me? I miss him too but we can't be together. We're not destined, and our fate are just playing around.

It's really hurt but I need to do this.

"Don't look for me, I'm not coming back..."

I gulped. "Kalimutan mo na ako, Zyair..."

"No!" He cried. "Don't do this to me, baby please! Don't!"

"I'm sorry but I don't love you anymore. Be happy with Natalia, give your child a happy and complete family. Give your love to her... to them because I don't deserve your love. I don't deserve you." I burst out into tears the moment I finished my words.

"I'm letting you go and please let me go also... I'm tired! Pagod na ako, sobrang pagod na. Ayaw ko na!"

"Alora, anong nagawa ko? Bakit? Please let's talk personally. Please! Let's fixed this misunderstanding. Please!" He begged from the other line.

I shook my head. I can't face him. Mabuti nang tapusin namin ang namamagitan sa amin through phone call, after this our love story has already end. Tapos na kami, I and him are over. It will be over!

"Let's end this, I wanted to end this. The sunset is beautiful isn't it? I want to start a new beginning with someone else and it's not you... Let's stop this, let's break up!"