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28.

Nae pov
Ok so I know y'all are probably confused let me catch y'all up so after me and the boys broke up joe caught me in my room smoking,cry,etc and I basically told her to leave me alone until I was ready to talk about it and she

reassured me that it was cool and her door was always open and I just said ok but I was really depressed and sad and I realized I could have handled the situation differently between her and the boys joe was just trying to help and the boys

even though I had some good point I never really took the time out to hear them out so I went to joes room to talk but she wasn't there I thought she just went out so I just left it alone and I wasn't ready to talk to the guys yet so I just waited I waited for like week before talking

to them so I could get myself together and form a sentence without crying and I finally got the strength got in the shower fixed my hair and knocked on there door and Malik opened it and looked like he seen a ghost "wassup sis" "hey are

the boys here I just wanna talk I'm not going to start shit I promise" he was kinda looking skeptical at first but he said "I'm sorry Nae there upstairs" I was so confused why is he saying sorry what's going on but I just brushed it off and walked up

the stairs I heard laughing once I got to there door and they are in a good mood and just opened the door and what I seen broke my heart into a million pieces joe was on top of them laughing with only a bra and some of siah's draws on "oh my gosh I think I'm going to throw

up" "oh my Nae it's not what it looks like" "so it don't fucking look like you just got done fucking my ex's and your wrestling on top of them" "Nae ok it's looks bad but let me explain please" "you know Jordan I felt bad for pushing you

away when you where just trying to help but you could have just told me you felt some type of way about me not wanting to talk to you I think this is a pretty fucked up way of showing it" "Nae let us..." "and y'all I felt fucking bad for breaking up with y'all the way I did but I can

clearly tell I was just another peace of ass y'all was fucking until it was time for a replacement I was going to sit down and hopefully talk to y'all explain myself and we could have prolly been cool but I guess not now right" "Nae come on let's talk about it that's what you came

over here for please" "and Malik said I'm sorry before I came up here I should have walked my black ass back out the door after he said that but I pushed it to the back of my fucking mind ready to apologize and have my boys back but now y'all are contaminated and I don't

wanna catch anything but y'all have a good night" and I walked out and got in my car and started driving I don't know where but I started driving I had tears in my eyes and I was just over it I can never just

have a normal fucking relationship just once I wanna be a normal fucking person that shouldn't have to deal with shit like that but I. The middle of my rant of thoughts I got a Group FaceTime call it was Aja and Avion and I picked up and I found this parking lot to pull over

in I think it was a strip club because it was like 5:00 so I was empty "hello" I said with a shaky voice "oh my gosh bestie what's going on" "what the fuck happened" I gave them the run down on everything

that happened and Aja said "come on bestie come over my house everything will be ok I got you" "nah they will drive there and find me I wanna be left completely the fuck alone I hate all of them I just wanna die everything I do is just

never right and to be betrayed by my own cousin really that's so fucking low dawg I should have beat the fuck outta all of them" "Nae just come to my house turn off you location and just tell your mom and big sister where you at" "Avion you don't have to I'm not your

responsibility and I'm not going to be your burden either I'll just say with my big cousin Lina" "yeah no best your staying with me or Avion pick Lina is a boarder line crackhead that girl smokes five

woods to wake up in the morning" "ok fine just tell me when I'm becoming to much and you want me to leave Avion seriously" "girl I wouldn't have even brought up the idea if i didn't want you to" "ok I took all the clothes I had out my car so ima just go home right quick and grab some clothes for a while then

I'm be there in like an hour" "ight bet" we hung up the phone and I drove back home when I walked in my house my sister and joe where rushing out "what the hell" "oh my gosh i thought you killed yourself" "what's going on" "joe told me what

went down and I started to rush out because your location was in one place In a abandon parking lot then it just stopped I got worried and was about to go find you" "we'll I'm fine but I'm about to leave again though" "where you going" I looked

at joe like she just killed my puppy "somewhere that I won't have to see or be around you again I hope your happy I'm out of y'all life" "Nae come on please just talk to me let me explain" "nah you good I'm not mad you have a good night though" and it's been like this for

almost 4 months I been basically living with ace I don't talk to siah or mari unless I have to and I don't talk to my cousin at all the only time I go to my house is to spend time with Angie and Quanie or to pick up clothes and that has been my life for the past couple months