Xiao & Aether angst

二十一

Trigger: mentions of alcohol and blood

Too drunk to drive...

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"Honey~ I'm gonna go get boba, you want some?"
I ask, Xiao nods his head. "Sure, I'll take uhh.. strawberry I guess." He muttered under his breath, I nod my head, noting the order.

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I was different then, after Xiao broke up with me. It also, broke me. I take another swig of the beer in my hand. I glance at the strawberry boba in my cup holder.
I always order it, in hopes you will come back, that you leaving me for Venti was a dream. And I'd wake up to you driving me around again, your warm hand in mine. My heart feels heavy, Xiao, I miss you.
Tears cloud my vision, it's not safe to drive. Yet I do it anyway, with a sad smile I start the car.

The colors flood the cities street, lighting the road so prettily. My eyes are enchanted, my foot leaves the gas, or presses harder. I can't recall, my eyes begin to see hearts, see flowers, see stars and planets before me.

I'm in love with everything, then a screech, a loud whine my tires cry. Before everything flashes before my eyes. And I'm left clinging to the stirring wheel as blood drips down past my eyes.

"Xiao.."

I swear for a second, I saw you in the other car that I crashed into.