AOT Oneshots/Headcannon Book 2

F. Time Doesn't Stop

Requested by kdumovich

This will be in Jean's POV

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I remember the day I first laid eyes on her. We were twelve at the time. Things were simpler then. I wanted to join the Military Police because I wanted to be safe in the interior. She wanted to join the Scouts because she wanted to see what the world was like behind the walls. From the moment I met her, I was whipped. At the time, I assumed it was because of hormones, I mean I was twelve and I was a boy. When you see a pretty girl, I mean of course your heart starts to beat fast

But I soon realized that what I was feeling wasn't just hormones. I had fallen for this girl. For three years I trained beside her, and I was sad to hear that we would part ways. No matter how much I wanted to be with her, there was no way in hell I would risk my safety for her. I was whipped but I wasn't that whipped, yet. Then, when the Armored Titan had attacked. All of my plans had been ruined. I thought I was going to die that day, but I was one of the lucky ones and so was she. I couldn't say the same for Marco. He died that day, and no one knew how. To this day, I still don't know

Things got worse from there. Ultimately I decided on joining the Survey Corps, so I got to spend a lot of time with her.. but it was overshadowed by the fact that the people I once called friends were the same people who had been trying to kill us. Reiner, Bertholdt and Annie, they were traitors. I couldn't believe it, but it was true. Then, for a while it seemed like things had cooled down. Historia had become queen, we managed to eradicate Titans from the island. Things were great

I enjoyed watching Y/n from afar. I didn't feel that I had to confess to her, despite wanting to be with her. Her happiness was more important and I was content with where our relationship was. I was okay with her not knowing my feelings. I was okay with that, up until Eren decided to leave. Up until Eren betrayed us. Up until Eren laughed at Sasha's death. Why was he laughing?

I still don't understand. After her death, my eyes had truly widened. We weren't safe, and we never were. Any of us could die at any moment and that included Y/n. Things changed, and I wouldn't be able to continue on without her knowing. I could die tomorrow, and.. I wouldn't be at peace knowing that she didn't know. She had to know

"You wanted to meet, Jean?" Y/n asked me. I looked at her. I wouldn't chicken out, I've been harboring feelings for her for seven years

"You know, life is short and I really realized that after Sasha died.. and it made me realize a lot of things.. I could die tomorrow.. and so could you.. and there are a lot of things I haven't said.. I can't die peacefully knowing that you didn't know" I said. Y/n looked confused

"Y/n.. I've been in love with you for the past seven years, to be specific since the day I met you. Your smile, your eyes.. everything about you made my heart skip a beat. I wasn't ever going to tell you this because I was too much of a pussy to do it.. but after what happened with Sasha.. I was worried I would never get the chance" I said looking at her. Her eyes widened

"Jean.." She muttered

"You don't have to feel the same way, I understand.. but I just needed you to know" I said with a sad smile as I turned to leave. I felt her hand grab mine

"I wish you'd let people talk before deciding how they feel" I heard her say. My eyes widened as I turned to look at her. She caught me by surprise and planted her lips on my own. After imagining what this would be like for so long, it was so fulfilling. I had finally kissed her, well she kissed me but that was besides the point. She broke away with a smile

"I agree.. life is too short.. so maybe we should spend the rest of that time together" She said

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