hello loves.
this morning, at 4 something, i told Bambi that i like him. i wrote something up on my notes and screenshot it and sent it to him. he saw it at around 7:40am and loved the message...
after about 2 hours i asked him if he read it. loving a message is a bit confusing so i wasn't sure. he said yes and i asked if he wanted to talk about it. he said "okay what do you want to talk about".. i thought it was obviously given the confession but i asked what was going through his mind when he read it and he said he wasn't thinking about anything.
i wish he would just be straightforward, either you like me or you don't? i can't help but think if i waited too long to say something to him. that maybe if i had done it months before like i planned, that maybe his response would have been more understandable.
i can't tell what he's thinking or how he's feeling and it's honestly eating away at me, despite the weight of not telling him being lifted, another has taken place as i don't know where he stands.
im not sure i ever will because i can never tell if he's gonna text me back or not. im just so confused. based on our interactions i thought that maybe he could have liked me. and everyone who heard of our interactions, thought the same :(( this is upsetting and it'll be awhile until i get over it but i guess it will be okay...
if anything else happens, i'll be sure to update you guys, but this book is now closed...
i no longer have content to give to you guys, i hope you understand...
- jacy
