July 16 2020

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Udah hampir seminggu kata kata Chimon muter muter di kepala gue kayak kaset rusak. Gue harus gimana dong? This shit is scary tho, kalo gue ngotot maju buat ngejar Pawat it will be such an idiotic move, tapi kalo gue diem disini aja, I am gonna regret it for the rest of my life ga sih? At least i have to give it a try isnt it?

Lagian kenapa sih Non naksir sama fuckboi, pusing kan lo sekarang. Kenapa cerita gue gabisa kayak Frank aja sih. Ketemu ga sengaja, sama sama tertarik terus jadian. Bagian ketemu ga sengajanya mah mirip, tapi ini gue doang yang naksir, Pawatnya? I bet he never see me pass a hook up partner, liat aja sampe sekarang dia ga ngabarin gue.

Ngenes banget ga sih cerita gue? Disappear even before starting, lagian di umur segini bisa bisanya gue suka sama orang yang ga gitu gue kenal, and slept with me once. Chimon is right tho, i act like some random 15 years old. Lagian clichés ga sih, apa coba alasan gue suka sama Pawat? Bcs he looks like a greek god? Shallow banget Non, lo pada capek ga sih baca curhatan mengasihani diri sendiri kek gini?

"Ngetik apaan Non?"

"Diary"

"Lo beneran kayak anak abg dah" Chimon kayaknya emang suka rubbed it on my face ga sih? Emang kayak tai ini anak satu

Since that night, I've been staying with Chimon. Gue ga mood sendirian, tapi males juga pulang ke rumah. Ohm Pawat kayanya udah ngacak ngacak dunia gue sampe ga ketolong lagi deh. Sedih banget

"First day lo di tempat papi minggu depan kan?" Chimon give a zero fuck about how sad I'm right now. Liat aja, ini anak masih sibuk ngunyah basreng padahal sahabatnya lagi in a worst shape possible.

"Iya, kata bokap lo gue bisa mulai senin depan"

"Start fresh Non, siapa tau di tempat papi ada yang bening"

"Kata lo ada yang bening ga?"

"Gatau ya"

"Duh gue lupa kalo lo bulol"

"Lagian ya Non, lo tuh bisexual, lebih gampang dong buat dating, secara most human lo bakal oke. Iya ga?"

"Tapi ya ga segampang itu kali Mon"

"Ya kalo gitu mah lo bukan bisexual anjir tapi by yourself"

"CHIMON BABIK"

Walaupun ini anak babi simpatinya less than a zero ke gue, and this whole Ohm Pawat shenanigans, I'm glad Chimon is here. Kalo Chimon ga nawarin sleepover that night, gue gatau deh gue bakal gimana. Overthinking is my trait, and please blame my papa for that.

Sebenernya gue kangen banget sama papa, gue pengen pulang, pengen peluk papa. Tapi kondisi rumah juga agak chaos. Frank bilang papa sama ayah lagi sering ribut, padahal cuma masalah kecil, ever since papa sering ga enak badan, he asked ayah to stay with him more often, tapi ya gimana? Bapak CEO kan gabisa seenaknya mangkir dari kerjaan. Frank said they gonna be fine tho, hopefully emang cuma berantem karena mereka kurang spent time bareng bareng aja.

Gue sore ini mau ke PIM ngambil kamera yang lagi si service, gue uda cerita belum sih gue suka banget foto foto? Hobi nerdy ayah ini nurun ke gue, kameranya mah engga, cuma hobinya aja. Bulan lalu leica gue tiba tiba mati, and ayah told me to bring it there, dia kan udah hidup jauh lebih lama nih daripada gue, jadi ya mau ga mau gue percaya aja, daripada durhaka.

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PIM rame banget deh sabtu sabtu gini, mana semua orang lagi gandengan, masa iya gue gandeng kamera kan. Chimon udah gue ajak tadi, tapi gamau ikut, dia katanya mau nonton korean BL gitu, apa ya namanya gue iuga lupa, nanti deh gue tanyain Chimon dulu.

I end up lay my butt on on of the coffee shop yang lagi viral di tiktok, penasaran aja gimana sih rasa kopinya sampe viral kan. Gue sengaja ngambil duduk di deket pintu masuk, seru aja gitu ngeliatin orang lalu lalang di luar. Well that's not until i saw a very familiar figure with a gorgeous girl in his arm.

"Nanon hey" I freeze for a second, have no idea what to do, should i keep it cool, should i freak out? Or it's better to start crying right here.

My mind went blank, and all i can say is "Hi Paw"

"Uda lama Non?"

"Baru kok"

"Gue boleh gabung sini ga? Oh iya, kenalin ini Ploy, she's my date for today"

"Hi Ploy"

"Halo Non?"

"Kalian ngobrol deh gue pesen dulu" Pawat left me and this girl alone, ini gue harus gimana? Sok ramah apa gue cakar aja enaknya?

"Uda lama kenal Pawpaw Non?" Sok imut banget sih anjir manggil Pawpaw segala, argh sebel banget.

"Lo sendiri gimana?"

"About a month lah, he's a sweet guy" the fuck? A month? Jadi pas tidur sama gue si Pawat brengsek juga lagi deketin ini cewek?

"Are you guys dating? Like you know official?"

"Belum sih, tapi kalo dia kelaman ga ngajak official paling gue yang nembak duluan. He's such a catch nanti kalo ga cepet gue taliin bisa kabur lagi" Ploy ketawa renyah which at this point lebih kerasa kayak ngeledek gue.

Gue harusnya udah tau ga sih kalo akhir cerita gue bakal begini? Apa yang gue expect coba? Pawat juga suka sama gue? Please, he slept with me once terus udah, gada ngabarin gue lagi kan? Well compare to her, Pawat is definitely more into her than me.

"Menurut lo Pawpaw gimana Non? Gue tau sih dia agak wild tapi dia suka main cewe gitu ga sih?"

"Gatau deh kalo main cewek, kalo main cowok sih iya"

"Gimana Non?"

Author note: Nanon diary will be back yeay, tapi mungkin bakal update seminggu sekali from now on. Enjoy, maaf sudah lama menghilang 🥲

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