𝙆𝙖𝙞𝙨𝙚𝙧 '𝙨 𝙍𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙚

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Kaiser was starting to feel the guilt really eating him up.

He missed Spirit badly.

He felt like he was going crazy being trapped in the small cell he had to himself. He was isolated from everybody else

It got to the point he was waiting for the next hearing so they can go head and sentence him the death penalty because he just couldn't take it anymore.

It felt like the days was going by slower and slower everyday.

He wanted to go head and die so he wouldn't feel the guilt eating him up anymore.

They took him into solitary after he tried to kill himself in the regular cell. After noticing that didn't work they put him in a padded cell

He didn't want to eat or do anything in general. He had a another episode but he had to go through it and deal with it by himself which he wasn't really used to anymore because Spirit was always helping him

He been gave up on trying to not cry. He cried numerous of times to the point where his eyes was puffy and red

All this was giving him insomnia and he wasn't sleeping at all. He had bags under his eyes.

All he could think about was Spirit.

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Spirit still been the same but it was getting worse.

She was slowly falling into a very deep depression.

With the last trial coming up she realized how close it was to never seeing Kaiser again.

All she was going to have was the memories.

That plus the tv reports, it being on social media, having to work hands on with the case, people judging her etc was just adding to the list of things that was making her depression worse.

Not being able to escape all this was the icing on the cake.

But what really did it for her was the death threats.

All around she felt like shit.

She was disappointed in herself.

Thoughts of suicide did rummage through her mind but she always pushed them away.

Day by day though , it was getting harder

She was realizing she had nothing to live for. She didn't have family, hardly any friends that still wanted to talk to her, love was just something she couldn't have, and not to mention she didn't know if she wanted to keep her job or not

She worked hard asl for her job but she was starting to realize this is something she couldn't handle anymore.

They were basically forcing her to go to therapy but she don't want to.

She's not trying to open up to anybody else.

Kaiser was like her therapist. She talked to him about whatever was on her mind and he gave her the honest truth every time and didn't sugar coat anything for her.

This was a different type of heartbreak. She felt like she could literally feel her heart breaking

It was aching and crying out for someone to fix it.

Night and day, all Spirit could think about was Kaiser.

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"Hey" Ava said to Kaiser over the phone in the jail house