Disappear

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A desire to disappear

There's no intense reason
Just feel like I don't belong here

I don't want to live
Nor do I want to die
Just wanna disappear in thin air without anyone noticing and with no goodbyes

All my existence did was hurt others and even myself
Intentionally or unintentionally

They say that everything happens for a reason
And life is a test which will decide our place in afterlife

I beleive that for I have reasons which I don't know how to express

I'm a pathetic coward
And a detestable person
Not that I'm sad or depressed
Just aware of what kind of person I am

I don't feel like I want to change myself
Nor do I think that I need to
If I think rationally
It's quite the opposite

I know the things I'm supposed to do
But I don't feel like it's the right thing to do and the wrong too

Time flies by too fast
Yet I don't do anything

I don't think about my future
Or past
I don't desire any afterlife like others
Whether it be good or bad

I don't want anything to do with life
Sleeping more than I should and how I try my best to not think about myself
Proves my point

This dream of mine seems stupid and pointless
But it makes sense to me
Even though it's impossible
I try my best to achieve it

I don't feel any emotions regarding this
No sadness, anger, happiness or emptiness
Just a desire to disappear

-affkff


This is written by me.







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