I look at the pen. It confuses me. It looks like it has a blood stain on the over off the book along with the pen witch has bloody finger prints.
I wonder who's it is. Can't be anyone's but mine. I get ready for bed. I end-up scrolling through twitter and tiktok until 3am. Who would off guessed that social media would be so addicting?
My head starts to hurt and I haven't heard my dad come home yet. Must be doing an all-nighter? Whatever. It doesn't matter. I don't care. He doesn't even care about me anyways.
I put my phone down onto my bedside table and try and sleep as I have school in the morning.
Did I do the presentation?
Did I have any homework?
6am.
Shit.I'm ment to be asleep I have school at 7. As I close my eyes I end-up falling asleep almost within a second.
I soon hear my phones alarm go off. I click the x button and lay there for what feels like a couple seconds. Yet soon I hear.
"KARL. KARL JACOBS, GET YOUR ASS OUT OFF BED YOU LAZY-"
She cuts herself off before she finishes.I check the time. 9:15. I'm already really late. Should I just not go? I made that decision already and I guess so did my mother? As I hear the door close. I'm home alone today as my siblings already left.
When I'm alone it's the happiest I'll ever be. I'm so glad I'm alone and I can just have a day to lay and cry. Run away from reality. I love it.
I listen to some music. Sweater Weather. My favourite song. Ever. It makes me so happy.
Shouting out the lyrics. Dancing, laughing at how I mess up the lyrics. I really wish I could spend this moment with someone through. Yet I always look for excuses to not show up.
I'm not good at school either. I had an exam today. I had homework due last night.
I look over to my desk assuming I'm properly going to check for homework on my laptop.
But I see the book. Journal? Still laying there. The pen sitting beside it.I get drawn to it. To write something. But something's stopping me. It feels like I'm in slow motion. It feels like I'm going mad. I want to write in the book so badly but I can't. Instead I run downstairs. Into the kitchen.
Slowly I get some food. I'm still shaking. I look and look yet I couldn't find anything I want. I walk upstairs and start to get ready for the day. I put on black jeans long light-black shirt with a long-sleeved black and white stripped shirt underneath.
YOU ARE READING
it's just a book (KarlNap)
Fanfictiondiscontinued "Mom, Mom! Look I'm flying!" I jump off the sofa. "Karl, stop being silly. You're 15. Grow up."