mr. perfectly fine; percy jackson¹

the fifth letter

percy,

i'm starting from the beginning. the beginning of everything. you. me. us. the war. 

years ago, i was visited by kronos. my sister was sleeping serenely beside me. kronos visited me in my dreams, smiling wickedly. 

i was scared. how could i have not been? i had never seen such an evil man. of course, i'm used to it now. but that was not now. that was before. 

before, i'd never known about my mom, or you, or the gods.

sometimes, i miss the old days.

he told me a lot of things. some lies, but some the truth. he promised me he would protect my sister, so i agreed. how could i not? even now, drew is the most important person in my life. i'm only here for her. not you. not everyone else.

why did i agree? i don't know. i don't know why, but i thought that by helping him, i could save my sister from the evil in the world. i'm wrong aren't i? what has drew gotten her into now?

i agreed. he sent me on missions. i observed you. i followed you. my parents didn't notice a thing. 

i don't know if i want them to care. maybe i did. maybe i didn't.

i've always wanted to know all your secrets.

too bad i'll never get to hear them.

— serena.