Chapter 5

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I woke up the next morning so excited for another day that was sarcasm not a lot of people get my sarcasm and I usually end up in trouble but I don't really care. I wondered downstairs and saw Blake making a protein shake
Grace- hey Blake
Blake- hey grace, how you feeling this morning
Grace- I am alright thanks wbu
Blake- I am good
Grace- what you doing
Blake- making a shake and the going to work out you want to come with me
Grace- sure I am not doing anything else
Blake- alright let me just down this
Grace- ok
Blake- you want to try some
Grace- sure
I took a sip and immediately spat it out
Grace- what the fuck is that that is disgusting
Blake- ok I get you don't like it but don't swear
I roll my eyes. He finished his shake and we drive to this place called dog pound
Grace- is there going to be a lot of people here
Blake- there shouldn't be
Grace- ok
I hate meeting new people or being in situations were there are loads of people it is my worst nightmare
Blake- come on let's go
We walk into the gym and this guy comes up to us
Blake- hey Bradley
Bradley- hey Blake and who is this
Blake- this is grace Noah's younger sister
Bradley- hey grace
Grace- hi
Bradley- you working out with us today
Grace- yeah if that's ok
Bradley- of course come on let's see what you can do
We do a little warm up and then we move to weights
Bradley- how much can you lift kid
Grace- umm I don't know I have never done it before
Bradley- alright let's start off with the bar
I lift the bar and it wasn't to heavy then they add on a few more weights and eventually we get to 60kg which I couldn't lift
Grace- ahh nope I can't do that
Bradley- good job kid that's a lot for your first time
Grace- thanks
Blake- now let's let the pro go
Grace- you wish
He gets on the machine and easily lifts the 60 kg
Grace- show off
Blake- your just weak
Grace- rude
We all start laughing. We finish the workout
Blake- thanks Brad
Bradley- no problem nice meeting you grace will I be seeing you around here more often
Grace- umm I'll see
Bradley- you've got potential kid keep at it
Grace- thank you
We leave and get back in the car
Blake- do you want to go for breakfast somewhere
Grace- Idm
Blake- how about we go to Denny's
Grace- ok
I have never really been out to restaurants especially for breakfast most of the time I didn't eat breakfast. We arrive at the restaurant and take a seat
Blake- so how are you liking la
Grace- it's different I miss being at home
Blake- I know but hopefully la can become your home
Grace- probably not
Blake- I'll ask you the same question in a few weeks and we will see if your answer has changed
Grace- it won't
Blake- your so stubborn
I laugh
Grace- I get that a lot
Blake- anyway what you getting
Grace- I don't know I don't think I have ever eaten breakfast out
Blake- really
Grace- yeah
I could tell he was looking at me so I avoid eye contact
Grace- I think I am going to get the fruit waffles
Blake- out of all the options you chose fruit
Grace- yeah
Blake- ok
We finish up at the restaurant I only had a few bites which I think concerned Blake but he didn't want to say anything. Then we started heading home
Grace- hey Blake
Blake- what's up
Grace- thanks for hanging out with me this morning and taking me to the gym
Blake- of course no problem it was fun
Grace- really I am not just Noah's annoying little sister
Blake- no why would you say that
Grace- I haven't really spoken to you and I was blatantly disrespectful
Blake- you were just having a moment we all do and I don't blame you for what happened
Grace- are you sure you didn't feel implied to hang out with me
Blake- no of course not
Grace- ok
The rest of the ride home was quiet once we got home I saw Noah and Josh sitting in the kitchen
Noah- how was the gym
Grace- fine
Noah- what did you do
Grace- worked out
Noah- I need to talk to you about something
Grace- what is it
Noah- here really isn't the time or place
Grace- ok well when then
Noah- how about we go out for dinner
Grace- no I don't want to go just you and me just tell me now
Noah- mum and dads funeral is in two days
I don't really know how to feel. Who is even going to be there. Do I want to see them. I don't want anyone to see my emotions. I feel my eyes crystal over so I run up to my bedroom i hear someone close behind me but I slam and lock my door then someone starts knocking
Noah- grace come on open the door
I don't respond and he keeps trying until my door opens and I realise he has a key. I am crying so he comes and sit next to me and pulls me into a hug but I push him away
Grace- stop
Noah- stop always pushing me away let me help you
Grace- no you weren't there when I actually needed you
Noah- I know but I am here now
I think about it and right now I need some to hold me while I cry I haven't had that person for awhile but I have someone now I may as well use him now. I sit next to him and wrap my arms around him he stroked my hair and just holds me
Noah- do you want to talk about it
I shove my head in his chest
Noah- it may help to tell someone
Grace- no it's easier to just forget about it
Noah- grace you aren't forgetting about it it's driving you insane and causing you to act like this something happened and sooner or later me or someone else is going to find out
Grace- I'll wait till then
Noah- that's not going to help you
Grace- I don't want help
Noah- you may not want it but you need it and it is clear to everyone
He carries me into his room and we go under the covers and I snuggle up to him and he puts on a film I am still mad at him but as much as I don't want to admit it I missed him a lot and I don't want my anger to ruin this moment. We finished watching the film
Noah- do you want to do anything today
Grace- can we go see charli
Noah- yeah I will text her
Grace- wait can I text her
Noah- yeah here is here number
he gives me here number and I text here
Grace: hey charli
Charli: umm hey who are you
Grace: oh yeah sorry it's grace Noah gave me your number
Charli: oh hahha I thought you a random fan who had got my number
Grace: hahha sorry anyway I was wondering if you wanted to hang out
Charli: yeah I would love to why don't you come over to mine and Dixie's house
Grace: ok perfect see you soon
Grace- I am going to Charlis house
Noah- alright I am going to see Dixie anyway so that works out
We drive to there house and knock on the door
Dixie- hey guys
Noah- hey babe
He kisses her on the lips
Grace- eww not infront of me
Noah- stop being dramatic
Grace- stop doing that shit then
I say joking but he looks at me serious
Noah- I know you were joking but you better stop swearing or you are not going to like the outcome
Grace- and what makes you think I care or better yet you have the authority
Noah- don't start
Grace- don't start what
With that charli walks in
Charli- hey grace
Grace- hey char
Charli- you guys ok
Grace- yeah it's just that dickhead
Noah- THATS ENOUGH
He grabs me and put me on the couch and I immediately get flashbacks so I put my hands over my face and curl into a ball and start shaking and crying and beg him not to
Grace- i am sorry please don't hit me I am sorry I'll stop
He grabs me and pulls me into a hug
Noah- I am sorry I am not going to hit
I let him hold me while I am balling my eyes as he stroked my hair
Noah- grace
Grace- hmm
Noah- did mum and dad hit you
I nod my head
Noah- those son of bitches
I flinch
Grace- it was my fault though
He pull me up so we are making eye contact
Noah- it was not your fault listen to me none of this was your fault
Grace- they killed them self's cus of me
Noah- no they didn't that's on them grace not you
Grace- you don't get it Noah
I am still crying at this point
Noah- what don't I get
Grace- what it was like when you left I had no one to protect me
Noah- I am so sorry I didn't know it was that bad
Grace- of course you didn't
I stand up and walk over to charli
Grace- what we going to do
She seemed surprised I am not good at handling my emotions one minute I can be screaming and crying and the next I am fine or at least I can act fine. That whole situation made it kind of awkward as I don't think charli knew how to handle everything I think Dixie realised
Dixie- how about we watch a film together
I just nod my head and we all sit down and watch a film
Charli- can we order pizza I am starving
Noah- same
Dixie- I'll go order some what type
Charli- i don't mind
Noah- grace
I ignore him
Dixie- I'll just get a margarita and a pepperoni
Charli- ok thank you
Dixie- no problem
Dixie leaves and phones them. Then she comes back
Dixie- they said they will be probably 20 minutes
Noah- thanks bub
Charli- what are we going to do while we wait
Dixie- we don't have to do anything
Charli- how about truth or dare
Dixie- fine, you guys playing
She was directing that at Noah and i
Noah- yeah
Grace- sure
Dixie- ok Noah truth or dare
Noah- truth
Dixie- how many girlfriends have you had before me
Noah- 3
Dixie- oh
Noah- you are my favourite
Dixie- as I should be
Charli- we don't want to hear about your guys relationship
Dixie- tough
Noah- alright my go grace truth or dare
Grace- no I am not doing it with you
Noah- don't be a spoil sport
Grace- no I know exactly what you are going to do
Noah- and what is that
Grace- ask me about what happened with mum and dad
Noah- I wasn't going to ask you that
Grace- yes you were
Noah- gee
Grace- I don't want to play anymore
Dixie- that's fine I think the pizza is going to be here soon
Grace- I am not hungry I am going to go on a walk
Noah- I know you are mad but you have to eat and you can't go on a walk by yourself
Grace- yes I can I did it for the last 3 years so just leave me alone
Noah- I am not leaving you
Grace- stop, I'll be fine I'll be 30 minutes
Noah- no you are not going by yourself
Dixie- how about I go with you
Grace- I just want to be alone
Noah- you can but not on the streets
Grace- fine I'll go with Dixie
Noah- and when you come back you are eating
I don't respond and me and Dixie walk out the house. We walk in silence for a bit I think she wanted to make it seem like I was by myself
Dixie- you know he just wants the best for you
Grace- no he doesn't
Dixie- it took me a while to figure out not everyone hates me and that I need to not push away the ones that care
Grace- no one cares about me Dixie they can pretend all they want but if anyone cared they would have come and got me 3 years ago
I don't think she knew how to respond to that so we continued to walk in silence for a bit
Grace- what's it like being famous
Dixie- I don't really consider myself famous but it's quite overwhelming
Grace- that's exactly what charli said
We both start laughing we end up actually talking and it's quite nice she's a lot nicer and funnier then I thought I thought she might be mad that I had came back all of a sudden and stolen Noah
Grace- hey Dixie 
Dixie- yeah
Grace- can I ask you something
Dixie- go for it
Grace- are you mad that I am here like in terms of Noah do you think I have taken him from you
Dixie- not at all he is here for me and you and maybe you just need him a little more remember family always comes first
Grace- I don't have a family
I mumble under my breathe
Dixie- of course you do you have Noah and now you have me and your going to be stuck with me ok
She comes up and wraps one of her arms around my neck I start laughing
Grace- thank you
Dixie- always, now come on I recon the pizza is here
Grace- ok
We walk back to the house and Noah and charli are setting up the table
Noah- how was your walk
Dixie- it was good thanks
Noah- where did you go
Dixie- just around the neighbourhood
Noah- ahh
Charli- pizzas here
I go sit on the couch I have no intention of eating
Noah- grace come have some pizza
Grace- I am not hungry
Noah- it wasn't a choice come sit down don't be rude
I walk over to the table and sit down and he places a piece of pizza on my plate. I just stare at it and don't eat it everyone else is finished and I haven't eaten any of it
Noah- you are not leaving the table till you eat it
We sit around for another hour and I still don't eat it so they all get up and clean around the table and go sit on the couch I just stay on the seat I am not eating the pizza a few more hours go by and I still haven't eaten the pizza and I am still on the chair
Noah- just eat the pizza
Grace- no
Noah- grace i haven't seen you eat since you go here
Grace- well I have so
Noah- well goodnight
They all go to bed and I am still sat at the table with this fucking piece of pizza. I rest my head in the table and eventually fall asleep

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