broken | Kakashi x fem!reader (Editing)

here we go

-few years later-

I'm still working for the anbu tho I haven't seen sasuke since months but I don't mind since I know he needs his space, even though it's been years I feel like he still hasn't recovered from that incident and I'm willing to give him all the time he needs
the boy has been through too much at his age and to be honest it's been nice in the anbu , I mostly take assassination and tracking missions so it's not that bad but people have been saying i changed and but I know somewhere in my heart Im still that little girl who loved eating ice-creams on the side of the streets during the summer , the girl who wanted to give it her all to protect the ones she loved...and also the girl who failed to do it.

Somewhere in my heart I want to tell sasuke everything is fine, tell him that I'm here for him but I know now is not the time.

"n/n! We have a mission today remember?" Sai said running towards me , he has been my best friend since god knows how long , he is my most trusted and also most loved "oh yes i apologize let's go" I said putting my mask back on and going off to meet up with my team , my team is awesome with me , sai , haku , remi, mika and isaki we are really close
they are practically my siblings

"About time" haise says I just scoff and we take off to our mission. an assassination this time

-time skip-
"Move and spread ,engage when I give the signal" I said in a dominant tone they all nodded and surrounded the entire hideout it looked like a cave which was surrounded by greenery all over

I personally just know that this used to be a criminal hideout and some people might still be there and I have to kill them and that's all I needed to know anyways , once I saw everyone was in position I gave the signal

We all bursted through everywhere moving in a rapid motion trying to find anyone who was there soon enough we came across a lot a hallways "split" is all they needed to hear before each one of them going in a different one , I took the most left one , with one hand in a defence stance and another in my pouch holding a kunai tightly

After a while I came across someone he looked familiar but i didn't hesitate to charge at him "tch tch y/n still the same" he said I froze in play after realising who that was "....shiro..." I hissed
"The one and only" he said smirking and charging at me I moved out of the way just in time "it's gonna take more that that you psycho" I basically growled at him he laughed that motherfucker laughed "I'll kill you" by saying that I said "sotaru cursed art ; scarlet phantom" I said while doing the hand signs , "sharingan" I whispered activating my sharingan as well

And in a blink of an eye I had his heart in my hands but there was still time before he died so why not tell him a secret hm? "You know? My full name is y/n uchiha sotaru tell that to the people in the afterlife maybe they'll admire you and you'll earn the respect you never had here." I said to his face I could sense he was scared and shocked

I was about to walk away and he said "you're a monster y/n" I laughed and left 'tell me something I don't already know shiro'

"Everyone has been wiped out?" I asked my team "yes!" They all said after that we went back to the village and after reporting to the hokage I decided to treat myself for Ramen after all i did just kill one of the strongest in just a blink of an eye

I changed my clothes, my eyes glanced at the picture I loved the most which sat on my night stand peacefully "I'll kill every last person and I'll avenge you completely love" i said to the picture as a tear rolled down my cheek "I love you" I lowly whispered after that I went for ramen not that it helped but it reminded me of old times 'oh just how much easier it used to be back then' "hello ai" haku said sitting beside me "I told you not to call me that haku" I said in a bored emotionless voice "yeah yeah whatever so what are you doing here?" "Shitting my pants haku" he laughed like a miniac 'it wasn't supposed to be funny but ok...?' "sassy as ever I see" I didn't say anything to that instead I finished my food got up and left , I'm not rude to my teammates they know how I act and they don't give a fuck and I'm glad they don't give a fuck

-night time-
I stared blankly at the ceiling thinking about what hell felt like because I've been there experienced the pain and even if real hell wasn't like that I felt the most pain in the last 3 years than I ever could in my entire life , I took the picture from the nightstand and hugged it tightly
I started to sob , tears rolled down my cheeks as the memories of the fun times rushed through my find.

Itachi  was a really good person and never in a million years did he deserve any of this. His touch. His smile. His voice. Everything, everything was taken away from me in just a blink of an eye and i couldn't do anything but stand there

He was snatched right out of my arms
His heroic acts were hidden right in front of my eyes but I couldn't do anything about it

I knew it was going to happen
I knew everything, he had told me everything.

But I failed
I failed him
I failed myself

"Y/n....." I heard someone say from the window

"Sai" I said with a broken voice not moving an inch

I can't face him in this weak state

"The hokage wants to see you" he said in a soft voice which sai rarely does.
I nodded and he left , slowly but surely I got up and went to the bathroom wiped my tears 'now is not the time' i said to myself and put on my anbu outfit
'here we go'

Author's note ~
Heyy <3 i think this was much better than the last chapter *pat pat* *pat pat* don't take that out of context people. Don't.
Anyways I'll upload more tomorrow now I'm done for today lol
Adios!