I'm Not Insane. Just Not Insane

Eternal Rest

Chapter 15~ Eternal Rest

Ella's P.O.V.

Tears were pouring down my face, I still couldn't take the pain of Xavier dying.  It was all my fault, for leaving him.  I just can't take it anymore.  Just a few more days until his funeral.  Just a few more days.  I just sat in my room the whole day, not getting out for anything.  I didn't really care anymore I didn't want to.  Bryan texted me, asking if I could chill; I didn't even answer.  I'm tired of this.  I don't know what to do anymore. 

I'm guessing Bryan texted Matt, because Matt texted me.  I didn't read the message though, then he started throwing rocks at my window.  Romantic.  I just ignored him, and laid on my floor. 

Matt's P.O.V.

Why the hell isn't she answering any of us, I mean why not even Amy or anything.  Why the hell do I care so much?  Because you love her god dammit.  No I don't, why would I?  I mean no, like common.  I was pacing around my room, I didn't know what to do; it was bothering the shit out of me.  I sat down for a few minutes, and started pacing again.  I guess if she doesn't answer me, then I'll have to physically go to her.  I opened the garage, grabbed the ladder, and went towards her window.  The ladder made a snap, while I was climbing it, oh well.  My hands were shaky, and I knocked on her window.  Through one of her blinds, I saw her face snap into serious mode, I quietly watched her, and she didn't get up.

"God dammit just get up, and open the window," Her eyes became wide, and slowly came towards the window.  She peered through, and sighed.

"What the hell do you want?" Her voice was cold.

"Well, I mean everyone is worried, your not answering anyone's calls or texts," I sighed, and held on to her window ledge.

"Well no need, I'm okay," She turned towards her door, and looked back.

Say something stupid! I looked down, and just smiled.

"Well, you can go now," She slid her window shut, and closed the blinds.

I slowly climbed down the ladder, and went back inside, wondering what she was going to do now.

Ella's P.O.V.

I grabbed my phone, and replied to Bryan's text.  I know how to end this, I just can't do it anymore.  Bryan was going to pick me up in a few, which gave me limited time to fix my smeared makeup, but that's okay- I don't need to die pretty.  Bryan honked his horn, and I ran down the stairs, leaving a nicely made note on the bed.

"Aye! What's good?" Bryan asked when I hopped into his car.

"Eh could be worse. You?" My voice cracked a little bit, but that's okay.

"It's pretty good, you ready?" He smiled and laughed.

"Yah," Ready for my last day here.

We sped off back to his house, my head was throbbing, I seriously can't believe this is happening. but you know whatever.

He guided me into the basement, and grabbed a bag.  In the bag, were some mushrooms, you know what that means.  Bryan split it in half, and gave it to me.

"Ready?" He looked at my hands, they were shaking.

"Always will be," We started eating them.

Bryan's P.O.V.

I started seeing things, hallucinating much?  Ella looked calm, she was smiling and happy. 

A COUPLE MINUTES LATER.

Ella got up, and started walking up the stairs.  I slowly got up.

"Where you goinggg?" I started to follow her, she said nothing.

Ella went outside, and started walking towards the road.  I ran after her, trying to grab her before she got hit by a car, but I couldn't catch up.  She continued to walk; thank the lord that there were no cars when she crossed the street.  I finally caught up to her, but she just wouldn't stop.  I grabbed her arm, and she flipped.

"Let me go! Stop it!" Her face was red and her eyes were puffy.

"Where the hell are you going!?" I asked.

No answer.  I just stopped, and watched her walk toward the bridge.  I just couldn't put it together.  My mind was fucked, and I just didn't understand.  Then she started climbing it, I knew was she was going to do.  I fumbled to get my phone, and tried to dail Matt's number. It rang a few times and then he finally answered.

Hello?

Come! Ella, bridge, on, now!

Where at?

House my by!

I'm pretty sure he understood what I was saying because he hung up.

Ella's P.O.V.

I was on the bridge.  I was going to do it.  I mumbled to myself; I stood there for a few minutes, debating in my mind.  Ella knows that she's going to do it, but what's stopping her?  A car's engine came to a hault, and a car door slammed.   My head turned, and I saw Matt.  I need to jump now. Like right now.  He started running towards the bridge, but he came just a little to late. 

"Ells no! Stop!  I- I love you!"  By the time he got to the bridge, I was in free fall. Those words made me burst into tears while in free fall.

Matt's P.O.V.

"WHAT THE FUCK! WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU DO THIS ELLA! WHAT THE FUCK! HOLY SHIT!" I screamed with tears in my eyes.  My fingers were shaking, and I dialed 9-1-1

"9-1-1 what's your emergency?"

"Someone just jumped off the bridge by The gym on 88th street!" I was seriously panicking. I didn't know what to do.

"Okay we are sending people right over, just stay on the phone with me."

I heard the sirens of the cars rush behind me, and I just froze.  They rushed up to me, and a police officer started asking me questions.

Ella's P.O.V.

I splashed into the water, and started sinking.  It's okay though, I don't need this life.  My body started to hurt, and I started choking on the water.  This is my last minute to live, and I'm happy.  I don't have to live with all the regret anymore.  I'll be gone.

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Uhm what? Yeah thats right.  Well yueah this took like 432849873589327905 months for me. LMAO no. I wrote this in like about 2 hours but I didn't feel like writing for those past months. But no worries. This is going to be over soon. Like I mean.. I f you didnt notice that then your just fucking stupid... JAYKAY I love you. No i DONT. STOP LYING TO YOURSELF. LMAO

Im out

~Vixz

P.S. I DO NOT SUPPORT DRUG USAGE.. AHAH AND IM SORRY IM NOT AN EXPERT ON DRUGS SO YES DONT JUDGE ME.