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Chapter 8 - 10 Steps Backwards

Weeks had passed by since my hope had been found, For the first time ever...

And I thought there was no way this was about to go down hill for me...

I was basically on cloud 9 because of her

And right then it hit...
It was a strach at first
It didn't hurt much
Then it hit really hard
It hurt so bad ....
It felt like someone was ripping off my soul, mercilessly...

We had started arguing...

We always argued
There are no friends that don't...
But the arguments we had before were silly ones...
It was cute and another memory made...

But this time it was different...
We would fight over the silliest of things...
Maybe it was how she didn't like...
the way I talk
Or the fact that I got excited over silly things
Or that I talked too much
Or that I asked her about her life....
Or how she didn't like it when I called her by her very own name....

We were having the biggest arguments over the silliest of things
And it made me feel guilty, everytime...
It felt like I was the one at fault
I thought there was something wrong with the way I did things...

I even wondered if it was because she figured out that I liked her in a way I wasn't supposed to....
And she despised me for that...

I knew exactly where this was going but I was too stubborn to acknowledge it.....
So I kept doing what I was best at, denying it...
Denying that fact that our relationship (that was friendship) was now getting toxic.....

I kept on thinking that it was all my fault...
So I tried changing myself
I started talking less
I didn't get excited over silly things anymore...
I even avoided calling her by her own name...
Or even asking her any questions....

I became a different version of me
Especially around her...

I had changed....
For her