𝙃𝙚𝙧

Chapter 10 - Broken Hearts

She had rested her head on my shoulders that day...

The day I decided to end whatever I had with her

I had all the courage I could muster up until her head was on my shoulders....

I couldn't bring myself to say it....

So I didn't...
I didn't say anything...

Instead I kissed her on her head .....
Like it was my way of saying goodbye...

But she smiled brightly, not knowing what it actually meant....
Not knowing it was the very last time..

I had stopped talking to her ever since....

I know it was not fair of me to do so...
But I had to end this, whatever we had..
Cause I didn't want to be in pain, at least not anymore

It hurt so bad ......
I knew it would hurt but
Did not expect it to hurt this bad....

A week passed by and she still tried to talk to me , touch me....
But everytime she did that I retreated

Scared of getting hurt, again .
Pitying us ,
Pitying me.

It was almost time she understood what It meant...

Cause actions always spoke louder than words
And she was not dumb....

For the last time , when she held my hand.....
I pulled away.....

And the way her eyes looked at me
Broke me in every way it was possible....

For the first time ever, I saw how hurt she felt ,
Through her beautiful eyes.....
And she looked very hurt....

I hated the fact that she was hurt....
But what I hated more was that,
I was the reason.....
I was the reason for her pain.

That night was one of the longest night of my life....

I cried silently that night, now finally realizing that it was all really over.....

And I cried breathlessly....

Days passed by

I felt numb....
I felt like someone had chained my heart ...
And was squeezing it
Trying to tear it apart....

And it was hurting really badly....

All because everything we had was over....
Everything I had with her.

And even after everything ended..
Even after we ended,
She never knew how I felt..
And she'll never know.