Cheating on You (✓)

6

The flower shop sent a message that they have delivered my order and I'm thinking why until now I didn't receive any messages from Taehyung.

I'm at the kitchen counter browsing my phone waiting for her to call me even though I forgot to remind the shop to leave a note to whom it came from.. I know I'm such an idiot on that part, how will she know it's from me?

I'm deleting some not so important messages when I stumble to a conversation with only a telephone number in it

I wonder why I'm just seeing this now. it's my first time reading it but it's already in an open msgs which means someone has read it already

It comes from Ria, she's my classmate from my research and writing for narrative class.. she knows my number because we once become groupmates in an activity

We're exchanging messages  but we were just conversing about our topic in class, nothing more but this last few msgs she sent are obviously flirting and someone read it already without my knowledge and I replied to it?! Fck what is this!?My heart beats race and I'm scared thinking who messed up with my phone?

"I can't be seen with you, you know I already have a girlfriend and I'm avoiding making her jealous if she ever saw me talking to you"

I read it out loud!

Hands in my forehead thinking carefully when did I text this?! I'm sweating a lot thinking hard when did I sent this fucking messages. Did Taehyung read this? I always asking her to keep my phone in her bag whenever I'm with her

Then there's this one last text saying...

"We can date without her knowledge, it's fine with me as long she got no idea about you"

Fuck! Who borrowed my phone when this text was sent to that girl. I never flirt! And I will never do that to Taehyung! Oh fuck! Is this why she ask me if I know someone named Ria?

But who would reply to her using my phone?! I never sent this messages to her!

She's always been quiet on those days, maybe she's thinking if I'm being faithful to her after she asks me about her. Is this her reason why she broke up with me?! I browse some more conversations and there's a lot showing how flirty I am with this girl and she's using a lot of numbers I never thought I have in my phone

I dropped my phone on the counter looking at it! I can't believe what I just read! hands in my nape. What is this! Is this the reason why Taehyung suddenly become so cold at me and never ask me where I am?

I've always been late too on our dates but she never complains nor asks me why or where I've been, what I've been doing because I knew she knows I'm just busy with that subject. She knew I'm having a hard time making a narrative. She even offered me some help in those times but I declined it thinking she's busy too in her own lessons. She just smiles sweetly at me everytime I'm with her!

How stupid I am thinking all is fine between us! What she has felt if she's really the one who read this. I hurt her so much without knowing what I've done.

I need to talk to her and make this clear! I lose her because of this shit!

I feel literal pain in my chest. My heart hurts just by knowing all of this. What more for her? A tear rolled down in my cheeks. I'm crying only by reading this, how much she bears all of this keeping her faith in me while I'm doing nothing when she's being jealous and insecure.. I just let her think what she wants without reassuring her that I'm not doing anything to hurt here.

She always understands me.

Do I really deserve her?

I'm so angry at myself! I'm so fucking idiot not noticing she's hurting all this time while being with me!

I throw my phone crashing it to the wall of the kitchen when Yoongi came to me hearing the noise

"What happened to you?! Why did you throw your phone?" He ask picking the pieces of my phone in his sink

"I'm so idiot Yoongs! I hurt her so much! I don't deserve her!" I shout while crying in my hands

"I know you're an idiot but what did you this time?"

"She, she read some of my messages showing I'm flirting with another girl!" I told him sobbing

"what?! Are you really cheating on her all this time?!" He got angry throwing a hand on my shoulder

" No! Of course not! I'll never do that to her!" I manage to say between crying

" Then what's this you saying?! What messages?!"

"from Ria"

" That flirty girl that obviously crushing on you? I know her! What about her?!"

And I told him what I just saw in my phone and he got disappointed on me

" Fck you Jungkook! It's your phone! How you didn't know about that messages!?"

" That's why the small fights become so often.. I know she's insecure about a lot of things, I've no idea that maybe she got insecure because of me too! I didn't took care of her! I'm so useless!" I cry more thinking of Tae

" And when she said goodbye to you you easily responded with goodbye too to her? she might be thinking you're just waiting for her to let you go so you can do whatever you wanted! Poor Tae, why you didn't notice?!" He said slamming his palms in the counter

"I'm so idiot! Why I keep a blind eye that she's hurting inside! I cost so much hurt to her!"

" You better fix this Jungkook or else! I will beat you using my baseball bat! Or maybe I should get her away from you!!" Yoongi clench his fist. He's so angry knowing all of this. I just hope he will stay my friend

"I will but first I will know who uses my phone to replied to her! Someone used it without me knowing and whoever she is! She better have a good hiding place! She clearly did this for Taehyung to see!"

" You better do it properly this time before I forget you have a friend in me"  Yoongi threatened me

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The two best friends are sitting in the floor leaning on the couch watching Netflix..

Her date with Mark are all settled now, Jimin talks to him over the phone explaining why Taehyung's can't be with him and he understands

Taehyung is so into the series they're watching and Jimin look at her with a soft smile when he notice that she's crying

"Tae, are you okay? What's wrong?"

Taehyung hastily wipes her tears with a towel and turns to look at his best friend smiling while he runs a hand in her back consoling her

"I'm fine, I just carried away in the scene" Jimin looked at the scene and a couple is breaking up

"Sorry.. I didn't mean to cry, I just remembered something" she sniffed and  hugged him

"Why are we watching this? Let me change the show for you" and he get the remote beside me to search for another movie

"I'll cook some popcorn or do you like ice cream?"

"I want ice cream Jiminie, thank you" she smiled at him wiping some of her tears. Jimin got up to get the ice cream and get some cookies and drinks for them, place it in a tray and walk back to the living room when he saw Tae curled up clutching on a pillow the remote slide in her side a with dried tears in her cheeks, she fell asleep.

She's tired of all the cleaning and arranging, she can't deny that she's in the process of moving on.. for her is the way to cope with things that change in her life, instead of crying, she likes tiring herself so if the evening comes she can easily fall asleep not spending time to cry and feel the pain in her heart thinking of him

Jimin put down the tray of food on the coffee table and put a blanket in her making sure she was not laying on the cold tiles. He turned off the tv and beside her watching her sleeping

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