Natasha images bc why not;))

tolerate it.

this means flashbacks :')

i sit and watch from the kitchen counter as she works on her reports.

i walk to our room and get in the shower.

all i can do is cry.

ʚ♡⃛ɞ

"babe!!" i laugh as she tickles me "nat! wait-" i try to escape her prying arms "okay! okay!! im sorry for scaring you" nat lets me go and lays me on her chest as i catch my breath and we fall into a comfortable silence

"thank you y/n" she says brushing her fingers through my hair "for what? scaring you?" i look up at her to see her glistening eyes and immediately sit up to cup her face while straddling her " no dummy" she chuckles

"then for what?" i ask look into her eyes as natasha sucks in a breath "just for being you, being there for me" she lets the tears slip her eyes and hugs me "i just didn't think id ever be here, with you, happy and at peace. you just helped me so much i cant even explain it and i don't know how to thank you and im just scared to lose you because you're honestly the best thing that has ever happened to me. i love you so much i cant put it into words" she cries into my neck and at this point there are tears running down my face as well

i pick up her head "nat don't be silly. you could never lose me even if you tired." i say kissing her cheeks and nat pulls my lips toward hers "i love you too nat."

ʚ♡⃛ɞ

an hour later i feel the bed sink further down and im praying for it, that there is still some hope that she's fighting for our relationship but i feel nothing

i don't feel the warmth of her arms around my body she just lays facing the opposite direction of me

and i silently cry for the 2nd time that night.

ʚ♡⃛ɞ

"y/n!!!" nat calls me over "this is maria my friend from work." she smile placing her arm around my waist "oh hey" i hug her friend "heyy i've heard so much about you." she smiles "all good things i hope" we let out a light laugh "no yeah its all good..i mean y'all are the cutest and just so perfect for each other i wish i had what y'all have its so hard to find" she says looking between me and nat

and for the rest of the party i just hold onto nat as she speaks to all her friends

and all i can think about is how could we let ourselves give up? we act as if we're all good and such a perfect couple that have sex every night and its all just fucking amazing

but thats not it at all. when we walk through that door into our apartment we're back to hiding from each other as if we have nothing to sort out.

this is kinda like a one shot and ive had this in my drafts for a while and dont know if i should make it longer...sorry for not updating im lazy and tbh i studied and i mean STUDIED  the 'tolerate it' lyrics but got lazy and cut this short anyways how are yall? :)