Idea of Him 💕 (Pico x Boyfriend SoftMod) FNF

[8] Love Sick

As the painter plopped down onto his comfortable bed, a tiring groan left his lips. Huffing from his nose as his back was sore. The stool he'd use to sit on while he painted sure gave him back pains. Too, the ones at school also really messed with him as well. 

Though, he was able to paint peacefully in his room. The scenery of the sun setting felt so, calming. Never feeling so calm ever in his life. Well, the only reasoning why he felt so humble was due to the fact his mother and father were out of state on tour together. Meaning, a whole house to himself for a week. 

Shocked him that his parents constantly trusted him to be alone when they'd always be on him for his future. Too, his father becoming more and more suspicious as to recently due to the incident where Pico was with him at the front of his house late at night.. But, he shouldn't think of his ''dad.'' He should relax as much as he can before his parents arrived home next weekend on Monday. 

Benjamin begun to shuffle on his side, admiring the sun as the sky was beautiful as ever this time of hour. The suns beautifully orange appearance always caused a smile to slowly grow on his lips. Remembering how when him and Grace were young, they'd always during their sleepovers as kids made sure to lay on the trampoline Grace use to own every time before they had to come in due to it being too late for them both to be out. 

Though, the thought of Grace had made his smile slowly fade with pain. Every time something or someone reminded of Grace, he couldn't help but feel miserable. What went, wrong? I mean, he knew it was her parents fault from all the obvious brain washing. But, he knew Grace was a smart enough girl, so why? 

Benjamin couldn't help but let out a soft whimper to himself as his hand that laid on his made bed gripped into the sheet, almost as if he heard a storm arise in his head as this was always common. The painter focusing on the cities view as he felt disgusting. Wearing the same pair of dark blue sweats for two days, wearing a long sleeved turtle neck that was a soft blue. Being over sized as it as least helped him stay warm. 

''𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐠𝐨 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲.'' Thought Benjamin whom wore a pout. He was too tired to feed himself properly anymore.. Just, when will something bright happen in his life. Until, questionable muffling grunts were heard? 

Benjamin with a beating heart shot up as he'd sit on his knees. Almost instantly forgetting of his depressing boat he'd sway in as he'd listen in on the weird noises that sounded oddly close. Too, close.. 

Till, a tall ginger from outside his window slowly made it's way up onto the roof of his parents house as his jaw almost dropped in shock to his horror as he'd scream, 

"P- Pico?!'' 

As the spray painter approached his window with his usual wear. Always that same old black mask as he threw on his green hoodie. Too, black casual jeans. Too, having his bag that was always filled with questionable objects but, too shy to ask what he was carrying sometimes.. 

Benjamin with no thought crawled quickly towards the window as he'd struggle to open it for him but, managed to weakly as he'd soon snap,

"W- what's with you always showing up to my window unannounced?!'' He'd ask as, he was serious. He'd never message him a small message like, ''Hey, coming to your house in a bit'' or just, anything?! 

''Because,'' He'd reply simply as if he never crawled up towards his bedroom as he'd quickly untie his dirty laces as he begun to remove his dirty black converse he always wore for High School. 

"that ruins the whole point of a surprise!'' Pico chuckled while pulling down his mask. Revealing that charming smile he always wore everyday when the two hung out. 

Benjamin who didn't dare to reply cleared his throat as he'd try to process everything that occurred. I mean, he was feeling a bit better that he had somebody here to company him. Too it- being his possible crush..? 

''𝐍𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧..'' Benjamin thought with heavy disappointment as he still was confused with Pico. He made sure he'd just ignore it and pretend his thoughts about him never existed but it's just, too hard.. 

He was on his mind 24/7. How could he ignore him?! There were so many things he loved that Pico carried. His freckles, his dumb jokes he'd make that he always laughed at because he couldn't help it. His stupidly yet charming smile. And how he'd wait for him every morning near his house just so the two were able to walk with one another every morning no matter how far his house was from his. Too, how much Pico would text him. Even if it was 4 AM which, was a lot concerningly.. 

All of his thoughts would cause for him to flush up, gripping his hands into the fabric of his sweats. Watching as the begun to set his bag at the edge of his bed as he'd closely watch in. 

Was he weird for feeling like this? He never was able to help it no matter how much he wished to stop thinking like this. 

"Well, if you really wanna know why I came. It was because yesterday you said you felt lonely and bored. So, I decided I'd just spend the night here since, parents and out and, stuff?'' 

Benjamin's heart stopped, feeling as time froze as he'd feel his lips shake. Pico, staying the night? But, he was so unprepared?! Though, he couldn't just say no now? He did badly need company.. 

"Y- you can stay-!'' Benjamin replied with a high pitched tone by accident. Soon, embarrassing himself as he'd hang his head down to his thighs as his eyes glued onto his hands that gripped into his sweats.