A walk to remember || Tk

「 Chapter 7 」

—Chapter seven—

"What about Jeff Bangert? He might do it," I offered.

Jungkook shook his head. "He can't. His father's sick, and he has to work in the store after school until his father gets back on his feet."

"What about Darren Woods?"

"He broke his arm last week when he slipped on the boat. His arm is in a sling."

"Really? I didn't know that," I said, stalling, but Jungkook knew what I was doing.

"I've been praying about it, Taehyung," he said simply, and sighed for the second time. "I'd really like this play to be special this year, not for me, but because of my father. I want it to be the best production ever. I know how much it will mean to him to see me be the angel, because this play reminds him of my mother. . . ." He paused, collecting his thoughts. "It would be terrible if the play was a failure this year, especially since I'm involved."

He stopped again before going on, his voice becoming more emotional as he went on.

"I know Eddie would do the best he could, I really do. And I'm not embarrassed to do the play with him, I'm really not. Actually, he's a very nice person, but he told me that he's having second thoughts about doing it. Sometimes people at school can be so...so... cruel, and I don't want Eddie to be hurt. But . . ." He took a deep breath, "but the real reason I'm asking is because of my father. He's such a good man, Taehyung. If people make fun of his memory of my mother while I'm playing the part . . . well, that would break my heart. And with Eddie and me . . . you know what people would say."

I nodded, my lips pressed together, knowing that I would have been one of those people he was talking about. In fact, I already was. Jungkook and Eddie, the dynamic duo, we called them after Miss Garber had announced that they'd be the ones doing the roles. The very fact that it was I who had started it up made me feel terrible, almost sick to my stomach.

He straightened up a little in his seat and looked at me sadly, as if he already knew I was going to say no. I guess he didn't know how I was feeling. He went on.

"I know that challenges are always part of the Lord's plan, but I don't want to believe that the Lord is cruel, especially to someone like my father. He devotes his life to God, he gives to the community. And he's already lost his wife and has had to raise me on his own. And I love him so much for it. . . ."

Jungkook turned away, but I could see the tears in his eyes. It was the first time I'd ever seen him cry. I think part of me wanted to cry, too.

"I'm not asking you to do it for me," he said softly, "I'm really not, and if you say no, I'll still pray for you. I promise. But if you'd like to do something kind for a wonderful man who means so much to me . . . Will you just think about it?"

His eyes looked like those of a cocker spaniel that had just messed on the rug. I looked down at my feet.

"I don't have to think about it," I finally said. "I'll do it."

I really didn't have a choice, did I?

The next day I talked to Miss Garber, went through the audition, and got the part. Eddie, by the way, wasn't upset at all. In fact, I could tell he was actually relieved about the whole thing.

When Miss Garber asked him if he'd be willing to let me play the role of Tom Thornton, his face sort of relaxed right there and one of his eyes popped back open. "Y-y-yes, a-a-absolutely," he said, stuttering. "I--I--I un-un-understand." It took him practically ten seconds to get the words out.

For his generosity, however, Miss Garber gave him the role of the bum, and we knew he'd do fairly well in that role. The bum, you see, was completely mute, but the angel always knew what he was thinking. At one point in the play he has to tell the mute bum that God will always watch out for him because God especially cares for the poor and downtrodden.