~𝕭𝖗𝖔𝖐𝖊𝖓 𝖒𝖎𝖗𝖗𝖔𝖗𝖘~ || Punznap

Part 4

TW: Homophobic slurs, cursing, gore, Drugs, Suggesting abuse, bulling, mentions of suicide
AYYY PART 4-
I'm kinda losing motivation which sucks cause I really want to finish this story but at the same time almost no one reads it so i might-
ANGST TIME </3
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   As sapnap was upstairs changing getting ready for school Punz couldn't help but look around at all the photos on the wall smiling at a few of them, as most were baby photos of sapnap, but as he continued down the wall his smile faded as it turned more in to photos of his mother or empty slots with broken glass around them and Punz didn't have to ask to know his mother had broken them. God he hated that bitch. Punz stared at the photos a little longer before seeing sapnap walking down the stairs carrying a clear pair of clothes

As sapnap walked through the same painted walls he had to see almost every week for the past 3 years he couldn't help but be a little excited to go home, yes he hated his house but he hated school more. He hated having to doge the football team so not get shoved in to walls, he hated having to hide in bathroom every passing period so he could take a smoking break so he didn't have a panic attack. He hated having to stay after everyone fucking class so the teachers could give him the same speech about how he was failing their classes.

As he walked in to the lunch room he spotted his friends walking over and sitting with them he didn't have many but he had a group of 5 and that was plenty for him. "Hey sap how was your summer" he looked over at dream, he was a lot bigger then Sapnap with blonde hair and bright green eyes, Sapnap smiled and rolled his eyes "same old shit i've been doing every summer since middle scho-" he was cut off by a a boy who sat next to him we was shorter then Sapnap by a few inches and always wore the same damn beanie, sometimes Sapnap thought it was glued to his skull "by that you mean making out with that same damn blonde right?" Sapnap pushed him back and laughed "no! Me and Punz are just friends" one of his other friends spoke up this time it was Karl, Sapnap's best friend. They were childhood friends and hung out all the time "sap we both know that's bullshit, it's so honking obvious you like him!" Sapnap chuckled leaning back in his seat "no we aren't, I'm straight Karl you know that."

Punz walked in to the lunch room looking around and spotting Sapnap he began walking over a smile on his face which was rare, Punz tended to keep to himself and didn't really show many emotions but when it came to the raven he was soft and he fully admits it, as he got closer he over heard the sentence he hated so much. The one he was worried about every summer and still had to hear every summer "I'm straight" the blonde stopped still far enough away to not be seen, he turned and left heading to the bathroom. He walked to the very end to the biggest stall and sat on the ground staring at the floor,

Soon after school ended, Sapnap ran out of class to the flag pole in the front of the school and sat and waited, he waited for hours and just cried most of the time.
Everyday since the day they entered that stupid school they always met at the flag pole and walked home together, but Punz never showed up. Sapnap looked down at his phone where he had texted Punz so many times only to find he was blocked. Like that didn't make it worse. Eventually Sapnap stood up walking out of the school down the sidewalk and back to the ashes that used to be his favorite spot in the world, that he spent the days and night in with his favorite person. He walked over looking at the few pieces of the house that still stood, he sat on the sidewalk pulling out a blunt and lighting it, he needed to quit but most of the time that's what's stopped him from having breakdowns and killing himself but whatever.

He sat on the sidewalk the broken glass and wooden splinter from the house digging in to his legs as he scrolled through old photos of him and Punz most of them just being Punz, wether it was them skateboarding or sitting in the rusting bathtub that was now somewhere at a dump. He hated himself for it. He wasn't sure what he had done yet but he would figure it out and would do whatever he could to make up for it, sitting there on the cold pavement he finally realized he loved Punz, but by now it was too late. He already lost his love, his best friend, and the only person he could truly be himself around.

And he cracked
Now its only so long till he breaks.

Punz was sitting at home in his bathtub he didn't hate Sapnap he couldn't hate him but he was hurting he liked the raven but he was so deep in denial, it's like he was trying to manipulate himself and Punz couldn't stand it he couldn't stand the thought of being around Sapnap any longer, so he would leave him, he wouldn't let himself get hurt. But he was already to soft and it was too late to not get hurt. And yet the blonde still thought, still lied to himself that it would.
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I wrote this at school and now all my friends are making fun of me. Sobbing crying/hj

Anyway here's this I'll write on again later cause I'm over flowing with ideas

Anyway I hope you like this chapter I'm trying-