Lena Luther's trans boyfriend

Part 11 "cant move"

Once Alex and Kara left Lena went into the bedroom and found an outline of a person under the blanket she walks over to her side of the bed and lift the covers and joins you under the blanket

"You okay? That's a stupid question" Lena says you try to talk but in a strange way your body won't let you "baby?" You whisper as she turns her head so she can see you

Lena moves closer to you and kisses your cheek "lee" you managed to get out Lena can hear the pain in your voice "yeah?" She says with a little bit of surprise in her voice she didn't think you would talk

"I- I can't move" you stutter across your words as you speak even though it's a short statement "do you want to move?" Lena asks it's a simple question so why can't you think of an answer

You turn your head and look at Lena you shrug your shoulders "okay we don't have to move until you want to" Lena says with a little smile on her face it's a loving smile it comforts you in a strange way

You turn on your side which you shouldn't be doing your still healing from my top surgery you wince a little bit you want to be closer to Lena "what are you doing?" Lena says

"I want to be close to you," you say trying to find a comfortable position on your side "okay how about you sit between my Legs and we watch tv"

Lena throws the blanket off the two of you

You nod your head at Lena happy with that idea you sit up Lena moves so her back is against the headboard you move between her legs your head resting on her chest

"Take your t-shirt off you'll get hot" Lena says you sit forward and take off your T-shirt while Lena grabs the tv remote you lay back down head going back to Lena's chest

"Grey's Anatomy?" Lena asks if it became a thing when you stay at Lena's or she stays at yours you watch greys anatomy together "yeah" you say getting comfortable

You reach for Lena's free hand she happily gives it to you every part of you wants to just disappeared somewhere where no one will find you

You let that though leave your mind and Focus on Lena's hand the Veins on her hand a little scar on her knuckle her fingernails painted black her nails short but well looked after

You run your fingers over her Palm and draw circles "I want to be closer to you" you say all you want you to do is disappear into Lena's skin just disappear and stop feeling

"Baby it's okay to cry" Lena's never seen you cry and you don't like crying because when you cry you get angry and you are not very good at controlling that

"I wanna run as far as I can until my body goes numb" you pause for a moment Lena reaches her arm around your chest "I want to go numb"

Lena's not sure what to say she Leans down and kisses the top of your head you Swallow whatsoever in your mouth making your mouth dry "you..." her voice changes before finishing her statement into more of a caring it's gonna be an okay voice

"We are going to get through this together"