What the fuck is wrong with me?

thirty two

(Life has been very busy and I neglected this for ages I was honestly gonna scrap it but I read some comments on my chapters and I didn't wanna leave it on a cliff hanger for people who have enjoyed this :) also it is really nice to see people have been enjoying this so thank you <3)

Simon's Pov

Jj and I locked eyes for a second, panicked, before both running towards Harry on the floor and desperately trying to calm him down. "Harry please what is it? What happened?" He looked up at me with tears pouring down his face "I..I can't my phone..it was..it was." That was all he could manage through tears. I looked at Jj again, unsure of what else I could do but from the look on his face I could tell he had no clue either. The doorbell rang and Harry froze "NO NO NO DO NOT OPEN THE DOOR PLEASE DONT!" He cried. Jj answered before I could "Harry...Harry listen it's okay we just ordered breakfast okay? That's all it is."

Harry said nothing. He buried his face into my lap sobbing whilst Jj collected our breakfast which I am not hungry for anymore. "Harry?" I am so confused he said his phone? "Did someone call you Harry?" He nodded. Jj sat back down on the floor with us, takeaway bag now beside him too. "Who called you Harry?" I tried to speak as gently as possible but it didn't help him open up "I can't...I can't I'm sorry..I'm so sorry I'm ruined I'm so sorry Simon." Ruined?
Once again Jj and I shared worried looks. "What do you mean Harry you're not ruined at all."
Finally he looked up but not to me, to Jj "I just..I need to speak to Markus..can you call him for me..please?"
"Markus your therapist?" Why couldn't he talk to us?
Jj grabbed his phone without a second thought and dialled the number quickly "do you want us to leave the room?"
Harry sniffed "yes."

Harry's Pov

It feels like the phone rings forever before Markus finally picks up. "Harry! You alright? I haven't missed a session have I?"
"No..no," I wiped my eyes on my sleeve "I just needed to talk to someone about...you know..no one..no one else knows except you"
"Are you crying?"
"Maybe."
"Speak to me Harry you know I'm listening."
"When I woke up my phone was ringing and...and it was an unknown number..I only answered because he called twice and..and it..was him...it was him." I burst into tears again.