What the fuck is wrong with me?

Two

Harry's Pov

Usually I feel dull or completely empty, if you will. But when I'm around him and it's just me and him I feel something. Right now he was comforting me by gently holding me in his arms and it made me feel safe, like nothing could hurt me and all of my problems had vanished. I knew deep down though that nothing had really changed and that once he was gone all my dark thoughts and feelings would come rushing back and hit me like a kick in the fucking balls. I could've fallen asleep then and there but something came up in my head, preventing me from doing so.
Simons going to ask me what's up, isn't he?

*time jump to the next morning*

Waking up with your crushes arms wrapped up around you ain't bad at all, until you remember why they're there. The curtains were slightly pulled so I could see it was a nice day which was great since I needed a good reason to get out of the house and away from Simon, to stop him from asking any personal questions. For now at-least. Although I wanted nothing more than to stay and cuddle I couldn't risk him waking up and trying to get me to 'talk' like I knew he would. I gently pulled him off of me and got out of bed, considering I was in a reasonably good mood I figured I'd go visit Cal and Cal in their flat and see if they wanted to hangout. I brushed my hand through my hair then got changed into a clean, blue jumper and some grey joggers I'd picked up off the floor before finally slipping on my trainers and heading out the door; not bothering to even look at myself in the mirror as I was already aware I looked like shit and didn't want that to ruin my mood.

(Okay so Cal=Calfreezy and Callux obviously = Callux).

Cal's Pov

It was almost 9am and I was almost done making breakfast. "YO CALLUX FOODS READY!" I called to my probably sleeping roommate, he was never a morning person. After a couple minutes of no reply I realised he definitely was asleep so I grabbed my phone to ring him and; to my surprise, noticed a message from Bog.

Harry: could I come round and hang if you're not busy? don't want to step on your toes

My eyes lit up, we had hardly seen or spoke to Harry recently he'd always have a reason for not coming out with us.

Cal: of course you can come over boggo! ur welcome anytime, we can all go to the park to play some footie or something if we can get sleepyhead out of bed lol 😂

Sent