Why Why Why

Chapter 1

I open the front door and head out, my mum calling a goodbye to me. On the way to the train station, I see the girls, the girls who used to bully me. They gave up once I moved to high school. As I take a glance at them, one of them sees me and waves like nothing happened. Like those bad things they did, those bad things... I trudge to the train station.

Once I'm on the train, I put my headphones in. The PA system crackles to life and I take out my headphones from my ears. 'The next stop, Tanko city'. Not my stop. It feels like a hundred years for my stop to come. As the train slows down at my stop, I start grabbing my bag from underneath my seat and take out a notepad from my bag. I open the first page which has a list of 10 reasons why I want to commit suicide. I know, I shouldn't but I will. The empty feeling every time I go to school, home, hangout with my so called 'friends'. I can't live like this anymore which is why I need to, I need to... 

The word echoes in my head 'suicide, suicide, suicide.' I get to school and look at my timetable. I have health. Great, just what I needed. I head to my health class and on the board there's that word. It's a sign, I know it. I sit down in the corner of the back of the class, where no one can see me. The teacher walks in.

"Okay guys, today we'll be talking about what's on the board. Now grab your pencils and books and start writing what you think."

I don't write anything, I just sit there. Five minutes later the teacher claps her hands twice. "Okay class time to hand up your work."

Everyone hands their books in. I don't. Instead I look at the clock. 2 minutes to go.

"Catherine?" The teacher says to me.

I look at her. "Yes miss?"

"Your book."

"Oh yes right I was just about to hand it up now," I reply.

Everyone snickers at me. I walk to put my book down when a leg shoots out in front of me tripping me over. I fall flat on my face. Everyone starts laughing.

"Nice one Ben," one of his mates says.

The teacher comes over. "Everything okay here guys?" She glances at me on the floor. "You okay Catherine?"

I don't say anything. Feeling the cold floor on my face, I close my eyes wishing I could disappear forever. It won't be long till I leave this world.

The new girl in my class raises her hand. "Miss?"

"Yes?"

"The boy in the red shirt tripped her," she says pointing at Ben then me.

The teacher just nods but doesn't do anything about it. The bell rings. "Okay class, you are dismissed."