5SOS Preferences

Special Imagine

This is an imagine dedicated to Kiley. I was told you are a pretty great girl who is beautiful inside and out.

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I drew in a sharp breath as I saw another hate comment directed towards me. It seems like the only things I could see online were negative things about myself. This all is a cost of being so close with the boys of 5SOS. I am a teenage girl who is already so unsure on how I look and act; I do not need others to point out what they do not like about me.

I scrolled through all social media sites, only hateful words catching my eye. I am sure there are some positive words somewhere, but majority rules. I locked my phone and laid down on my bed, having no motivation to move.

My phone began buzzing and I ignored it until it began to buzz repeatedly. I hesitantly reached for it and saw Calum was blowing up my phone with texts.

"I miss you"

"Hey are you okay?"

"Kiley?"

"Please answer"

"I'm worried please reply"

He called twice, so I quickly sent him a reply.

"I'm fine"

He did not reply, so I assumed he believed me. I continued to lay on my bed with plenty of thoughts whirling around in my head. I sighed and closed my eyes, hoping to clear my mind. It almost worked until I heard my door open.

"You are not fine, you liar." My favorite voice spoke. My eyes shot open and I looked up at Calum.

"I'm alright." I tried to play off the sad emotions overwhelming me.

"Come here." He sighed and opened up his arms. I did not hesitate a second before pulling myself off the bed and hugging him.

One thing I know is that Calum can give amazing hugs when he tries. He gives you a sense of comfort in his arms, or it seems like that for me. He pulled away after holding me and he flipped off my room light to where the sunlight peaking through my curtains was the only thing illuminating the room. It was enough to see with, but enough to make it dark.

He grabbed my right hand and pulled me to the bed where we laid down. He stretched out on my bed and gestured for me to get comfortable. I placed my head on his chest and covered up with my blanket, looking up at the ceiling. He took my brown hair between his fingers and twirled it around.

Moments like this with Calum mean the most.

"Now what's wrong, Kiley?" He murmured softly.

"I just don't feel good." You tried to get away with that answer. You knew that response failed when he sighed and paused.

"Kiley, please tell me." He pleaded. You tried to collect your thoughts, but ended up spewing out all of your thoughts.

"I don't really know what's wrong, Cal. Some days I'm okay; but some days I want to lay in bed and cry all day. You already know I'm insecure about myself, so the constant thought of people making fun of my looks all over the Internet scares me. That's what people do, though. People laugh at me and point out my flaws. I stress so much that my face is breaking out, and that causes more problems! I just feel really sad that I don't look like how I want to look like. I'm upset that I'm not good enough." You breathed, feeling anxious after pouring out your thoughts.

"You know I love you and I'll always tell you the truth, right?" He spoke up. I nodded at that question.

"I can honestly tell you that you are stunning. You have beautiful brown hair with dazzling green eyes. You are such a caring and loving person that people can feel that just by you greeting them. You think of others before yourself and I know I appreciate that. Do I not tell you this stuff enough? I wish you could believe me when I say how gorgeous you are inside and out." He had stopped playing with my hair when he began speaking.

"That's the thing, Calum. It takes a lot for me to believe positive things about myself, but only a second to believe the negative." I snuggled back into the blanket.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry cruel people have made you feel like this about yourself. Just know you are an overcomer. You can get through anything! I'll be right by your side the whole time. These flaws people pick out, aren't anything bad. It is what makes you, yourself! Together they make something pretty special if you ask me. I love you so much, Kiley. I'm here for you, I promise." He kissed the top of my bed before going back to playing with my hair.

I may not feel so positive about myself, but maybe Calum can help. Maybe I can believe the things he promises are true. Maybe I can learn to like who I am.

"Thank you, Calum."

**

Kiley, you seem like such a wonderful person inside and out. The things you don't like about yourself can be things people love about you. You are strong enough to get through any tough times or struggles. I believe in you. I am always here if you need me, by the way!

I feel like this imagine had some heavy, yet relatable topics. I also have major issues with believing compliments people give me, but insults are so believable. I do know that everyone was put on this earth for a reason, and we are not mistakes!

If you ever have any problems, send me a message or tweet me or something! My twitter is @lukeafteryou_ and you're always welcome to talk to me.

This may seem kind of weird, but you guys should comment nice things to each other. Make friends and make people happy! I will be sure to compliment people as well. Kind things make a difference, no matter how small.