Bad Love

Part Two: Bad Love (44)

Ramona's P.O.V.

"What?" I asked slightly breathless, Nolan raised his eyebrow at me.

"I asked, what are you hiding from me?" My mouth went dry...does he know that I'm...No, how can he know? Unless mom told Noelle, even after I had asked her not to. Or maybe mom told Dad who told Noelle, and then Noelle told him. 

I stayed quiet as my gaze dropped once again to my lap, my baby began to move around...anytime I become anxious, the baby became more active... "Nothing." I said quietly, "What would I hide from you?"

"Alright!" Hayley said cutting through Nolan and I's tension, "My turn...never have I ever not stopped after hearing the police sirens coming from behind because you were going over the limit." She quickly poured her shot and slammed it back. 

The whole room broke out in laughter, the awkward atmosphere that had been created because Nolan and I had been lifted. "Well, now we have to ask a question to everyone because Hayley is only crazy enough to do that."

The game went on for a while before we decided to watch a movie, this was nothing like I had imagined, I thought their party would have a lot more people, maybe at a club but this was so lowkey. I had drunk so much water I had to keep going to the bathroom every hour plus the baby kept pressing down on my bladder as well. Sighing I stood up for what felt like the hundredth time that night to go to the bathroom, but Matt was in it. Creeping back I ask Melody if I can use the bedroom bathroom again, and she nodded smiling at me. Quickly running into the bathroom, I did my business once again, before walking out only to see Nolan sitting on the bed. 

"What are you doing here?" I asked standing in front of him, Nolan looked up at me. 

"I was waiting for you." He said seriously, "We didn't get to finish the conversation we were having because of Hayley. We need to talk still we won't be disturbed."

I glance over at the door to see it shut, "Did you lock the door?"

Nolan leaned back on the bed, "Like I said, Remy. Our conversation isn't done."

"There is nothing left for us to talk about."

Nolan abruptly stood up scaring me so I took a step back as he took one forward, he tilted his head to the side examining me, "You're scared of me now?"

"I just want to stay away from you," I say quietly trying to avoid his gaze, "The conversation we were having outside was pointless because I am not hiding anything from you. It's been four months, and we haven't seen or talked to one another, so what could I possibly be keeping from you?"

He scoffed, "If you really wanted to stay away from me Remy, you wouldn't be showing up to everything Mom and Melly invite you to, but that's another topic for another time. I know you, Remy, just as much as you know me. You only pull back when you are trying to hide something or are trying to lie. So it is obvious that there is something that you are not telling me about." My eyes snapped up to meet his...Did he know about our-my baby? He couldn't have found out, I haven't told anyone, not even Hayley.

"What would I be hiding from you?" I asked again firmly, trying to keep my distance from him.

His eyes searched mine, "I don't know, you tell me."

Taking a deep breath I shook my head, "Like I have said plenty of times Nolan. I am not hiding anything from you, all I want to do is stay away from you. I don't want to get hurt again, and I am not going to let you hurt me again...I have changed."

Nolan gave me a smug look, "Fine. If you want to talk about that so badly so you can avoid my topic then we will talk about that. If you want to stay away from me so badly, then why did you agree to come to my wedding? Why are you helping Melody pick out dresses? Why are you here right now?"

"To get rid of any doubts floating around in your mind about us....about my feeling for you." I say confidently, "Melody asked, I agreed. You two don't bother me anymore, if I matter to you then go tell Melody."

Nolan sighed walking towards me again, this time I stayed put, smirking he leaned down closer to me brushing his fingers against my cheek, spreading tingles where he touched, "You don't matter to me." Ouch, 'You didn't 4 months ago, and you definitely don't 4 months later...you want to help with the wedding, go fucking crazy...but if I figure out what the fuck you are hiding from me Remy, God help me...it won't be good." His voice dropped down to a sexy husky voice, shivers went down my spine.

My heart skipped a beat, and I went to go step out of his touch but he gripped my waist, my once flat stomach had a small slightly noticeable bump ...praying he didn't feel it, I gulped looking up at him. "I am not hiding anything," That statement was supposed to come out strong but stupid pregnancy hormones came out to play, I was melting in his arms, as my words came out breathlessly, he kept his smirk plastered across his face raising his eyebrow almost asking if I was sure.

Furrowing my eyebrows I pushed away quickly, clearing my throat I say, "Keep your hands to yourself Nolan...at least now...after hurting me so much, stay with one woman."

"Remy,"

"And for the last fucking time, I am not hiding anything from you."  Avoiding his grasp I rush out of the room towards the living room where everyone was sitting, I make up a lame excuse about not feeling well before dragging Hayley behind me and getting the hell out of their newly bought house. 

"Remy, what the hell is going on." Hayley asked as we sat inside of the car, I let out a shaky breath putting the car in drive, "Remy."

"He's on to me." I whispered trying not to let the anxiousness of him finding out about the baby get to me, "Nolan thinks that I am hiding something from him. He has asked me that question at least ten times alone tonight. He isn't going to stop until he finds out and...if he finds out about this baby then..." 

"Remy slow down.' Hayley cut me off her eyes were wide, and snapping out of my little rant I looked down at my speed, I was going 140, in town. Slamming the brakes the car tired shrieked from the sudden tension from the break. Hayley and I both went silent.

"I am sorry," I whispered as a tear slipped out of my eye, "I shouldn't have put you in danger like that, I am sorry."

"Hey," Hayley whispered gently grabbing my hand, "I am fine, we are fine...have you been taking your anxiety pills?"

"Yeah," I whispered, "I just really don't want him to find out."

"He won't." Hayley breathed out, "It's only a few more days to go, he'll be married and you'll be back in New Zealand. Just stay calm."

She didn't know him as I did. Once Nolan decides he wants something he gets it...and if he wants to know what I am hiding, then sooner or later he'll find out...and after he finds out...the outcome is what I am afraid of...