Beginning of the End | House Of The Dragon

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JONQUIL POV

He returned within the hour after my own and as I heard his steps drawing closer, I ringed my sweaty hand and fluffed up the red curls that flowed down my back.

"Alright, what do you want?" I exhaled and made my way to him, taking his face in my hands I began to kiss him with a force and savagery I had never done before as answer. He was clearly shocked at first because he didn't kiss back, but slowly his lips began to work against mine with just as much force.

I moaned as his tongue forced its way into my mouth and I reveled at the feeling of his hands exploring my body. I brought my hands down to his breaches and started to untie the laces there and that's when it all stopped. He gripped my wrist and pulled back, though our noses still brushed against one another.

"What are you doing?" He breathed out.

I bit my lip. "What? Is this not what a husband and wife do?" I removed my wrists from his grip and slipped my hands underneath his shirt only for him to grab onto them again.

"Stop." And he meant it.

My face turned stoney and my eyes grew hard, I saw an anger in his own features to match mine. He scoffed.

"So you actually listened to them." I tried not to let my body turn stiff. "What, you were gonna seduce me, fuck me, and then just pretend to love me and that we were a happy little unit all for the sake of this family?"

He talked to me as if I was some stupid child. "Well someone has to do something in order to defend the honor of this family because you're clearly not up to the task." That stung and I could see the hurt in his eyes though he tried to mask it. His fingers clenched and unclenched around the air. I knew he was thinking about Isiaac.

"I'm sorry that I'm trying to find some semblance of happiness. I'm sorry that I don't love the woman that I was forced to marry. I'm sorry I don't love the job of being Lord when my father had to die for me to get that title. I'm sorry that I'm not who you thought I was and that I'll never be who you want me to be." A pregnant silence passed in the small space between us and we were so close I that I saw my reflection in the tears gathering up in his eyes. "I'll stop sleeping around with the ladies of the court," I let out a relieved sigh. "I'll cut back on the whores and the drinking, and I'll be seen in your chambers more often, after this baby is born if it's a girl we'll try until we get another boy and if its boy vise versa, and we will be seen as a family." Another beat of silence. "Happy?"

"No, but I'll take it." Tears filled my own eyes. He said he didn't love me, and he never would, which I already knew but to hear it said aloud struck a cord deep inside me hurting me in a way I never thought it would. Tear began to fill my own eyes and I could tell he knew what had upset me, he read me like a book. He looked at his feet before placing a gentle hand to the back of my head and raising his head to place a soft kiss to the crown of my head.

"I'm sorry." He whispered and then turned on his heels to leave.

"Where are you going?" I hated that my voice wavered.

"Um, I'm going out with Daemon and the city watch, I forgot to tell you. I'll be home late tonight but I'll be in bed with you in the morning when you wake."

We'd never shared a bed he always quickly left after we preformed our duties of trying to produce and Heir, but I didn't question it and instead just nodded. I heard the door shut and next thing I knew I was curled up against the wall and sobbing into my legs.

AURELIUS POV

I knew she was crying, I could hear it as I walked away. I felt guilty but I had told her the truth of it. I don't think I could ever be in love with her, not with how it all started, but I think I could grow to love her as a friend and a trusted advisor, someone I could talk to. Maybe. One day. Hopefully she could forgive me.