Forever Manoban (Jenlisa Adaptation)

Chapter 19

“Lisa called and told me everything. Jen I’m sorry, and I wish you would have told me about the cancer, but now is not the time to talk about this,” she said as she pushed my hair out of my face. “Get some sleep, I’m not going anywhere, and if you’re up to it, we’ll talk when you wake up.”

I didn’t say a word; I couldn’t. I just shook my head and drifted off into a deep sleep.

I woke up and looked around the room. I sat on the edge of the bed as Jisoo walked in. “Finally, you’re awake.”

I yawned and ran my hand through my hair, “How long have I been sleeping?”

She put her hands on her hips and twisted her face as if she didn’t want to tell me, “2 days.”

My eyes widened, “What? 2 days? Jisoo, why didn’t you wake me?”

She came over and sat on the edge of the bed, “Sweetie you obviously needed it. When I found you on that bathroom floor, god Jen, I thought you...” She turned her head and looked at the wall.

I lightly took her hand, “I know Jisoo and I’m sorry.”

She laid her head on my shoulder, “The only thing that matters is you didn’t. You’re awake now, and you need to eat. Minhyun made the most delicious chicken noodle soup.”

I looked at her with a frown, “Who’s Minhyun?”

She tilted her head and smiled, “Dr. Hottie, he’s been here helping me out while you’ve been sleeping.”

I rolled my eyes, “Seriously Jisoo, you told him everything?”

“Yeah Jen, I did; we’re seeing each other now, and I needed someone to talk to, besides, he’s been the biggest help.”

I got up and felt light-headed. Jisoo grabbed my arm, “You need to eat Jen; it’s been 2 days.”

She helped me to the kitchen. All I could smell is the aroma of the chicken soup, and it was amazing. I didn’t feel like eating, but my body told me I had to. I sat at the table as Jisoo set the bowl of soup in front of me, “Eat up.”

“Where’s my phone?” I asked her.

“It’s over on your desk, I charged it for you.”

I walked over and pulled it out of the charger and turned it on. I patiently waited for it to turn on so I could see if Lisa texted me or called. There was nothing, not even a voicemail. I should have started crying, but there were no tears left in my eyes.

Jisoo sat across from me as I slowly ate the soup Minhyun had made. “Jennie, why didn’t you tell me about your cancer coming back? I thought we were best friends?”

I couldn’t look at her because I was ashamed. I knew my secret would hurt the people close to me. I’ve already lived it, and I couldn’t go through it again.

“Jisoo, I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you. I wanted to tell you, believe me, but I couldn’t bear to stand in front of you and see the look on your face after I told you. It was bad enough I had to tell Kai.”

She reached over and touched my hand that was resting on the table. “Jen, I would have stood by you and supported you. I seriously cannot understand why you wouldn’t tell me. I get that you were scared, and you didn’t want me to worry, but what were you going to do? Just go off and die alone?”

I got up from the table and sat on the couch, hugging my knees to my chest and burying my head in my hands. “My life has been made up of hurting people Jisoo. I need you to understand that. After my mother died, I was left as a reminder of her to my dad, and that hurt him so much, he had to drink himself to death just to cope. Then there was my suicide attempt and cancer.” I could feel the tears starting to spring back to life.