Forever Manoban (Jenlisa Adaptation)

Chapter 23

She carried me up to the penthouse and to the bedroom. She started to help me undress as I stopped her.

“I’m fine; you need to get out of those wet clothes. Please go change; I’m going to take a hot bath.”

“Do you feel well enough to take a bath by yourself?”

I shot her a look, “If I said no does that mean you’ll get in with me?”

She looked down, “Jennie.”

I saw the look on her face, and it was one of pain, almost the same look as the day in the hotel room.

“I was kidding Lisa, now get out of here and go change.”

She walked out and left me standing there feeling like an idiot. I didn’t make it to the bathtub. I put on my nightshirt and robe and collapsed on top of the bed.

***

I woke up 4 hours later and couldn’t move. The part I feared the most hit me; the pain. I started to whimper when I wanted to scream because I didn’t want anyone to hear me. My body felt like it’d been hacked into a million pieces, starting from the top of my head down to my toes. There wasn’t a single bone, joint, or muscle that didn’t hurt. I tried to get comfortable, but I couldn’t. I slowly got off the bed and wanted to scream when my feet touched the floor. I stood up and made my way to the door; I stepped out into the hallway and dropped to my knees and then onto my side.

I started to cry, more a soft whimper like a puppy. Lisa must have been in her office, which was the room next to the staircase because I could hear her on the phone. I tried to crawl to the bathroom, but the pain was too great. It wasn’t too long when I saw Lisa running up the stairs, skipping a step in between.

“Jennie, my god, what’s wrong?”

At that point, I was shaking uncontrollably. I put my hand up. “Don’t touch me, it hurts,” I cried.

She yelled for Gyuri and told her to call the nurse immediately and get her over to the penthouse. She sat down beside me and touched my hair.

“I need to get back in bed, just pick me up and get it over with,” I begged. She stood and picked me up off the ground. She flinched as I screamed. She carefully carried me into the bedroom and laid me on the bed.

“The nurse will be here soon; she’ll help you,” she said as she gently brushed the hair away from my face.

I looked at her and cried, “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry for this, I never wanted you to see me like this.”

She knelt down beside the bed and lightly touched my hand. “You have nothing to be sorry for; I’m the one who is sorry. It kills me to see you in such pain,” she said as a single tear fell down her cheek.

I took my thumb and gently wiped the tear from her face as she took my hand and looked at my wrist; the one tattooed with her name. She didn’t have a chance to say anything as the nurse came in with her bag. Lisa stood up and sat at the edge of the bed while Gyuri stood in the doorway.

“You are going to be just fine sweetie,” she said as she held up a needle. “I’m going to give you a shot of morphine for the pain.”

She injected the shot into my hip and told me to relax. She then asked Lisa to step into the hallway. I started to relax as the pain started to subside. Lisa walked back in room and to the other side of the bed, where she sat up with her back against the headboard. I turned on my side to face her.

“It isn’t always going to be like this,” I said. “The first 3 days after chemo are the worse than I am usually fortunate enough to have a few days where I feel good; well as good as can be expected on chemo.” She didn’t say a word; she only sat there playing with my hair.