🆂🆃🆁🅰🅽🅶🅴🆁 🅳🅰🅽🅶🅴🆁~|HYUNLIX|~

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The alarm went ringing obnoxiously loud, banging on Felixs' ears, screaming at him to get his shit up and get to work. But he's not up for that yet. He wasn't feeling doing anything at all for the rest of the day. Or probably until tomorrow.

No....for the whole week.

...... actually, for a whole month.

Scratch that, he will rest and lock himself in his house for a year.

Or until.....he don't know.

Until he move on from HyunJin?

Until he wasn't feeling and craving for his cuddles and kisses anymore?

Until he wasn't missing the man?

Until he wasn't longing for him anymore?

Until he finally cage his heart close again?

Or......Until he won't feel the love at any circumstances?

It's been three day since that day and it's been a hell days for our poor boy. It was torturous. It was painful for him. Exhausting.

At the moment he's waking up, his hands will automatically grope the other side of the bed to look for HyunJins' arm and make sure he's sleeping beside him. It was as if it is an engraved muscle memory of his. He couldn't get enough. No matter how many times he say to himself HyunJin wouldn't be there anymore when he wakes up, his heart wouldn't want to believe.

He'd also frown in disappointment whenever he will walk downstairs and there he won't see HyunJin placing down the breakfast meals he bought for him.

When he's heading to work, no one will walk him to the coffee shop. And when he's gonna clock out of work, no one is leaning on that sturdy brick wall, waiting Felix to fetch him up.

There's a lot of things he was used to do with HyunJin for every single day and it wasn't easy for him to get over that quickly. His body and mind was moving out of instinct.

He just couldn't help but tear up and cry realizing everything won't be the same as it was.

But he rather chose to be like this than staying with the man that's just gonna hurt him at the end. Although it would be a lie if he said his feelings finally faded out for the elder. It's still there. He just don't want to acknowledge it just yet until HyunJin will finally get his answer.

He wanna make sure if there's still a chance for them or not. Because if there's none, then it's time for him to actually move on and forget.

Or maybe move out of the city. Who knows?

For now, he needs to stay since he still got himself a work to accomplish every single shitty day. He can't just leave his job only because of one man. Even though there's a lot of coffee shop available and are waiting out of bigger cities, he can't leave Chans' shop yet.

Or maybe because he got his 'friends' there. He already got attached to them even if it's not totally a full attachment. Felix already considered his co-workers as his peers.

Despite of hating to even move a single inch, Felix forced himself to get up from his inviting bed, exiting a loud groan from his throat as he did so. He sluggishly moved towards the bathroom to get a bath, much slower movements than how he usually do but he remembered two days ago how he stayed in the bathroom showering for one straight hour so this one is an upgrade for the least he could say.

After he showered, he brushed his teeth and did the rest of his morning routine. He don't wanna look an absolute shit like that day after him and HyunJin went into split. He was horrible that day. Absolutely horrible. He can't even remember how many times he burned the pastries and snacks he's baking and how many times he mixed wrong ingredients together. He couldn't count as well how many times Taehyun saved him from the misery of the kitchen fails. He was grateful for the youngers' patience though he was well aware that Taehyun was reaching the peak of his temper from all his mistakes. All of his co-workers have noticed his unusual behavior and kept on asking him trains of questions but he just leaves them unanswered.