Rebellious Love

[19]

Our body is still connected, I can still feel him inside me. Ayaw ko alisin yung connection namin, with our naked body I can feel more. Not just pleasure, but also the love of him for me.

He is rubbing my back and I was rubbing his chest. "Are you good?" Tanong niya sabay hawi ng buhok ko. "I am, just kind of tired. But I'm good." After I answered him he gave me a kiss on my forehead.

And we did it again for four times, which made both of us exhausted...

I woke up with his oversized shirt over my body, I didn't remember wearing it. He must have wore it on me. Ang sweet niya nakakainis. Last night his all devil with the sex we did, now he's such an angel for dressing me. Tapos mukha pa siyang hulog ng langit sa sobrang gwapo matulog.

He woke up and looked at me, hinila niya ako at niyakap. "Good morning princess, let me sleep more then we'll spend more time together." He said so I just nod at him. "Good morning din po." I hugged him back as well putting my legs over to his body, that's when I felt him hard once again. "Babe, don't tell me I have to help you with that? I'm tired from last night. I'm not even sure if I can walk right now." Pang aasar ko sa kaniya pero bigla naman niya inalis yung paa kong nakapatong sa kaniya. At dumapa siya sa kama, na parang nahiya.

The doorbell rang, kaya napaupo ako sa kama dahil parehas kaming hindi presentable. Kung sino man yun.

"Yan na ata yung inorder ko kanina nung natutulog ka pa." He said and he sat on the bed. "I'll get it. I'll just wear your jacket and grab money from that." Pag papaalam ko kaya kinuha ko yun at bumaba na.

Pag suot ko ng jacket ni Tyler ay tsaka ko binuksan yung pintuan. "Hi good morning kuya, how much po yung food?" Tanong ko habang humahanap ng cash sa wallet ni Tyler. Umangat yung tingin ko nung hindi sumagot yung tinanong ko. That's when I saw Dave, mad at me. "Babe what's taking you so long?" Tinignan ko si Tyler na naka boxer short at topless lang.

I'm fucking scared on what can happen. "Dave, pre! Ano ginagawa mo rito?" Gulat na tanong niya sa lalaking nasa harap ko na malapit na makipag sapakan dahil handa na yung kamao niya sumapak. "I fucking told you, if ginalaw mo siya patay ka sakin." Galit niyang tinulak si Tyler.

Hinawakan ni Tyler yung damit ni Dave at handa na rin siya makipag away. "Both of you stop it. Para kayong mga bata." Sabi ko pero hindi nila ako pinapansin. Sinapak ni Tyler si Dave and Dave did the same. "Fucking stop it." Hinihila ko na si Dave pero natulak niya ako papunta sa may vase na nabasag at nasalpakan ng kamay ko. My hand is bleeding because of it, I was just looking at the blood and suddenly both of them are beside me.

I was losing my sight, more of a blurred vision because of the feeling of me losing blood. Pero tumayo ako at dumeretso sa may comfort room to wash off the blood. Tinignan ko yung cabinet sa may sink at nakakita ako ng malaking bandage para sa kamay ko, after ko lagyan yun ng bandage tsaka ako lumabas. "Ano? Bakit hindi pa kayo nag papatayan?" Inis kong sabi sa kanilang dalawa and they looked at each other still mad.

Dave walked towards me and grab my hands and look at it. "Let's go to the hospital, it's still bleeding." Sabi pa niya pero inagaw ko yung kamay ko sa kaniya. "I think I can take care of my girlfriend bro." Tyler said firmly and proud. "Girlfriend?" Napangisi si Dave sa sinabi niya.

"We both know Trix, Tyler. Satingin mo ikaw pipiliin niya just because may nangyayari sa inyo? That's just a fling bro, sex with benefits." Nainis naman ako sa sinabi ni Dave dahil pinamukha niya akong malandi. "Ayaw mong binabastos siya ng iba, pero ikaw! Ganun lang kadali para sa'yo bastusin siya. Hayup ka!" Binigyan siya ni Tyler ng isang malakas na sapak. "Don't fucking disrespect my girl ever again. Or else hindi lang yan makukuha mo."

"Dave umalis ka na lang, ayaw ko na ng gulo please lang." He gave me a final look before leaving. The last time he gave me that look was when he said he love me. Now I'm all confused all over again.

Bumalik kami ni Tyler sa family house niya, na hindi nag iimikan sa isa't isa. I didn't want to say anything about it, that might hurt myself or even him. I grabbed my key on the key holder and started my car, hindi ko na siya inantay sumakay doon at umalis na. I needed time alone, baka sakali mas maayos yung gulo na nangyayari.

If I didn't fall for them both, this might not be a problem. Kung hindi ko na ginusto gumanti edi sana we are all happy attending Ateneo. I didn't know who should I go to. No one's really there for me besides them, yung nag sapakan kanina. There's someone I have in mind but I doubt she'll be any help for me.

I unknowingly dialed her number, my mom's number. "Hello anak? Napatawag ka?" I didn't know why, but I started crying. "I love both of them, but I don't want both of them hurting and killing each other just because of me."

"Do you need me over there?" She asked pero umiling-iling ako. "No need, I guess I just need someone to listen." 

"Anak, mahalin mo yung mahal ka at hindi ka kayang saktan. Piliin mo yung nandun para sa'yo simula umpisa hanggang sa dulo."

"Paano kung parehas naman silang nandun, pero lumayo yung isa dahil sa kagagahan ko and now his back again."

"Then your heart will tell you who it'll be. Don't let him go if you know the answer."

I cried inside my car after my mom hang it up. Simula pa lang si Dave na, but then Tyler..... I can't choose between my two best friend, dahil alam ko ang isa sa kanila ay wala na para sa akin, at masasaktan lang siya ng todo. I can't!