This Life (BxB)

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Ace

The clock on the wall continues to tick as Dr. Shannon writes in her notepad. "Is there any reason why you lack personal communication? Is it trust issues? Tell me what it is."

"Just never saw a reason to tell anybody what the fuck I'm going through. It's always been that way. If I'm going through a rough patch, I'm going to get through it alone."

"But you're not alone though. You have a brother and your boyfriend."

I couldn't help but to scoff at her mentioning Tobias. I'm still mad at his ass.

"What's really going on?"

I sighed as I took a sip from the liquor in my glass. "I see why my um, boyfriend didn't want to see me anymore. Turns out, he was keeping some shit away from me too."

Tears clouded my vision, feeling deeply hurt about the situation. I blinked hard so tears wouldn't threaten to fall.

"What has he kept away from you himself?"

I set my glass back down on the table.

"We got into it. There were times where we got into it, but it was never to that extent where he doesn't want me seeing him anymore. He wasn't telling me what's going on with him. Every time I visited him, it's all about me. He was the main person pushing for me to open up more, only for him to keep things in the dark."

She nodded her head as she continues to write down quickly on her notepad, occasionally pushing her glasses up on her face.

"After ignoring his letters and phone calls, I finally agreed to visit him. He was telling me how sorry he was and how he didn't mean to say any of that. Everything was going okay, he told me what was going on and I thought that was progress. That wasn't until he told me that he has a kid. He got some bitch pregnant years ago when he was tryna get with me. Something inside me snapped after hearing that."

After I left out that hoe, I drove to the nearest gun range. Old me probably would've burned all his old shit that I still got.

Dr. Shannon stops writing and her brown eyes through her glasses shift up to stare at me.

"How did that make you feel?"

"Angry, so angry that I wanted to cut his dick off."

She gives me a concerned expression. "I don't think that will do any good."

I shrugged my shoulders. "It will for me."

"Question. Were you two together at the time?"

"No, we weren't official yet. But still, he didn't have to get some bitch pregnant while wanting me at the same time."

Dr. Shannon has a confused expression, then she scoffs at my words. "Girl—"

My face scrunched at her, wondering if she got a problem. "What?"

"Baby, you said that you two weren't official yet—"

"So? We were getting to that point."

"Ace, nobody in life is going to wait on you, especially not for a long time. Love cannot wait."

I sighed out loud. Everybody be having me fucked up.

She still has a calm expression. "A mistake may have happened, but you shouldn't be contemplating on ending a relationship you are clearly happy in. All couples go through ups and downs, and every relationship is not perfect."

I stared down at the floor, feeling myself suddenly missing Tobias.

"He's your first love, I can tell. You get so happy talking about him—the happiest I ever seen you be. That's why you are so angry because the person you love hurt you in someway. Communication, something that you lack in, can really help. Instead, understand each other rather than getting angry. Maybe you can tell him some things you told me that you haven't told him yet."